mensissues

Count down the minutes!

I’m gonna bang out 20 pages today.

I’ll hate it as the clock counts down.

I’ll do 40 pushups in 20 minutes.

And I’ll bang out each rep and hate it all the same.

15 minutes of jogging

And I’ll hate every second and every second step.

Let me push myself.

Past the next minute from yesterday’s clock.

I hate myself and I’m pushing myself everyday.

A dopamine hit from progress.

I never enjoyed any step of the way.

Wake up at 5:00am

Then 4:59

Then 4:58 the day after that

Discipline is the only way.

I hate the process and love every number.

I can’t enjoy the steps just the number.

My life is a journal and I log everyday.

I’m miserable and I died

Counting each and every day.

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