My Dad passed away july 10th. I was estranged from my family for the last 7 years. I still texted with Dad, we would both watch you tube and send a song to one another to listen to, too sweet!! We also played Words with friends!!
I had to leave my family because they were not helping me, I am sick and disabled. Just me my Sister and Dad.
Poor Guy Had to raise 2 Girls on his own. Mom abandoned us at 7 & 9 years old,and me & my sister did not get along, Ever!
I left my family 7 years ago because I needed help if I stayed there I do not believe i would be alive today.
My Older sister is a Narcissistic Psychopath!!! Even after having surgeries and having to cath to urinate she tells everyone that they did not want me around because im crazy. Not Sick!! It's Bad, she has hurt me so much, I don't understand why, guess that's another post.
I thought maybe after 7 years of her having my Father to herself things might be a little better. WHAT WAS I THINKING!! She is worse, if that's possible....
Anyway I called my Mother because I thought she should hear it from 1 of her Daughters, another error in judgement. I have not talked to her in years, but 15 days after my Dad Died she blocked me for not calling her for 3 days. I had talked and texted with her for about 12 days, I needed a break.
I really didn't need her blaming me for her being sick and for the last fight we had years ago...
I did not need this on top of dealing with my Narcissistic 🤪crazy ass Sister and my Dad dying.
I thought I felt alone before, now I really feel alone, he was all I had to hold onto. And I have not received much support from anyone, is it because I moved away from them, he was an alcoholic, mostly emotional abuse from him and my sis. Do people think just because I did not live in the same area as he I loved him amy less...
Sorry so long!
How do I hold on? I'm sick, I have noone and I don't know what to do this alonr😥😢😭
And now I need to find a good state to move to in another state that i know nothing about, Ill need new Dr's and what if they don't fill my scripts.
I here my Dad in my sleep. He had a real deep voice, he was a good singer, I think obout him almost every hr. I've left msgs on his phone.
I really need a hug from my Daddy just one more time...