Can I have a Full Body Transplant, walking is an issue daily, getting up and getting out of bed is a daily issue, pain is a daily issue, jerking, shaking, asking for help is a min by min issue, and never happens, God, I feel like I'm 66 not 36, thank u all for being supportive, I need to give in when people wanna help, I just don't want them to see me like this, life stinks when u r Chronically Ill and in pain daily.

Finding the good in a day is extremely difficult, especially when people want to help, Can I have a Full Body Transplant, walking is an issue daily, getting up and getting out of bed is a daily issue, pain is a daily issue, jerking, shaking, asking for help is a min by min issue, and never happens, God, I feel like I'm 66 not 36, thank u all for being supportive, I need to give in when people wanna help, I just don't want them to see me like this, life stinks when u r Chronically Ill and in pain daily.

Finding the good in a day is extremely difficult, especially when people want to help, and u sadly think of ur past, and push them away, because I know when they see me like this, they'll walk away amyways, so, I don't let them get to close.

Even ur near and far, FB family and friends u push away by saying you'll get tired of me being sick, being negative and walk away, and they want that chance to prove u wrong, which they have, but, u still try and push them away, because u think and know in ur heart it'll just be a matter of time before they leave, because u r wearing them out with ur sickness and pain.

I just want to apologize for being this way

of ur past, and push them away, because I know when they see me like this, they'll walk away amyways, so, I don't let them get to close.

Even ur near and far, FB family and friends u push away by saying you'll get tired of me being sick, being negative and walk away, and they want that chance to prove u wrong, which they have, but, u still try and push them away, because u think and know in ur heart it'll just be a matter of time before they leave, because u r wearing them out with ur sickness and pain.

I just want to apologize for being this way

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#unwanted