unloved

I’m not wanted. All my friends abandoned me, I submitted an article two weeks ago (from my writing email), and forgot to include things because I’m an idiot. My family hates me and doesn’t talk to me, and I have no one to talk to. I feel like I’ll be alone forever. #BPD #alone #unwanted #unloved #depressed

Until his mental and psychological abuse started taking over. Now it feels worse than the physical abuse I received from other men. Bruises heal, words stay on replay in your mind forever. I had a full on breakdown not that long ago and some of the things he said to me after that were just too much. He calls me mean and nasty, he calls me a bitch, he's said I'm "a piece of work", a pathological liar... He said something about my body not long ago that makes me feel a million times more self conscious than I did before he ever said those words to me. He treats me more like a maid or that I'm an ordinary person and not his wife and constantly says he's going to leave and/or divorce me if I don't get our house "in order" and do it pretty much by myself because that's my "job" as a stay at home wife and mother. The depression, sadness and defeat I feel is the worse I have ever felt in my life. I don't know who this man is anymore. I cry every day, multiple times a day. The panic/anxiety attacks are unreal and I have to hide them the best I can because if I take even take my dr prescribed medication, he'll still call me an addict, but he can have alcohol...how the hell does that work?? I feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest 24 hours a day. Of course he can talk trash to me, be condescending, narcissistic, conniving, call me names, get in my face, have an attitude or yell at me but God forbid I stand up for myself...

#Narcisist #verbalabuse #Controlling #EmotionalAbuse #MentalHealth #selfconcious #Depression #Anxiety #PanicAttacks #worthless #unloved #PTSD

Looking for support, care, friendship, yes, I love myself, so don't start off with that, don't tell me I need counsoling, I just need someone who is gonna listen, be here for me when the days r hard, which r daily.

I have
Congenital Hydrocephalus,
Retinaopathy of Prematurity
Hypertonia
Chronic Knee, Ankle, Shoulder, Wrist Pain
2 L5 S1 Discectomies
Diverticulitis
Essential Tremors
Epicondylitis
Possible Neuropathy
Possible RA
Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
De Quarveins Tenosyvitis
Pulled Groin

I just need someone who wants to walk this journey with me, stay the course, realizing, it's not gonna get better, that is as positive as I can be.

Don't try to change, just be here me

#CaregiversCorner
#unloved

Maybe I'm destined to be lonely, wishing I others to talk to abiut the pain, loneliness I'm suffering, people say the mighty is the best App, wonderful App, as I lay here in pain from all my Chronic Pain and Illnesses, and a pulled Groin, I wonder what is so great about the mighty as I come here daily and nothing has changed with my activity.

As I come here post in the groups I a part, No Likes, No Support, No Love, I'm used to it.

I read more and I see likes supports, I'll message u, etc.

People say out yourself out there, well, people post, whose up, I'll say I'm, I'll reach out, nothing.

People say we'll u need counsoling, no, I don't think so, I just need someone there who is gonna love me for me, want to be friend for real, not overlook my post, and I make a comment about it, amd they say I'm just seeing this after a month.

Wow, wow, wow, the nighty a great App, got me fulled

#Disability
#Support
#unloved
#Friendlessness
#Upallnight
#CheckInWithMe
#ChronicIllness
#Nosupport
#Nosupportsystem
#sick
#Pain
#PainSufferer
#Friends
#Christianity

5:05am here in Kentucky laying here moaning and groaning in pain.

Tremors wrecking havoc

##Upallnight
#Essential Tremors
#chronic pain
#Lonliness
#unloved
#EternalTremors
#VocalTremors

It is 4:10am here in Kentucky, I got woke up tremoring and shaking. Over It, need support, care, and love.

Thank u all for having me.

Tried counsoling, anxiety meds, won't go back to either one of those, y'all r my friends and family and support

#essentialtremor
#loneliness
#lonely
#chronicpain
#chronicpainsufferer
#ChronicIllness
#Nosupport
#Nosupportsystem
#unloved