I wrote this today...

Shadows

There are shadows around me, both inside and out.
On the edge of my vision, that I just can’t make out.
My past is a shadow, that I can not see.
Even with all this light, it’s unclear to me,
I try so hard, to get over my past.
But my memories are hidden. Am I up for the task?
To dig, and to delve, into memories unknown.
To peel back the layers, and take what’s my own.
There’s a fear in me, about what I will find.
As I go deeper into shadows, that close off my mind.
Am I frightened to discover, I’m not the good person I want to be?
Or am I scared to recall, all the bad done to me?
What’s clouded in shadows, I see in my dreams.
But forget upon waking, I’m not ready it seems.
Why was I given this life, that I can’t recall?
‘It’s for a reason’ they say, but I can’t see it at all.
Sometimes the shadows, overwhelm my being.
And I think I’m on the verge, of truely seeing.
My past that’s a shadow, black and hidden from me.
I’m terrified of the light, that’s meant to help me see.

By Marni
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