Strong Woman #Survivor , #babysteps ,#only2shadesoff ***edup
Just wanted to say hello world. I was a daddy's girl and for the last 5 days I struggled as his 5th death anniversary got closer and closer. I thought about how tired I am of dealing with the stigma that TV has put on people with #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder , and knowing as a child that I was different. I thought about just letting go so I could be with him again, but then it finally happened. My 3rd eye opened up and my dad showed up 2 nights in a row as I slept fitfully. (My dad also had mental health issues and whenever I had to be hospitalized or was having a major meltdown, he was the only person that I let get close enough to touch me). I don't remember everything but he said something to me that only he said but on that 2nd morning, really afternoon, when I woke up I looked at my phone and I had his number there and was texting him.
I made it through the grieving process with only one broken phone, which is what it's there for, and alot less self inflicted wounds than before.
Even in the afterlife, my daddy knew I needed him and he made himself known. I guess what I'm saying is that I know who really loves me because they are there besides me 💯. They are not looking at me like I have 2 heads or like I'm the antagonist from a horror movie. Thanks for letting me share. #CheckingIn #notavictim .