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    Mother’s last wishes (warning can be triggering)

    So my mom passed last week. The week before she passed we were at the Drs office as they delivered the news that my mom had a few weeks left to live. My mom brought up my oldest brother and said I know that my brother didn’t rape you.
    This was not a time or place I wanted to talk about it.

    My mother and I never fully talked about what occurred with my brother when I was younger. My brother on more than one occasion was inappropriate with me as a child. I talked to him for most of my adulthood. A few years back I had flashbacks of the situations. Which I can see clearly as if they were yesterday. I decided it was too difficult for me to continue to act like nothing happened.

    My mother basically wanted me to forgive my brother. Without knowing fully what the situations were. So my Mother on her deathbed wanted me to forgive and makeup with my brother.

    I feel guilty as my mother has passed and I know that this would have made her so happy. Idk what to do. If I do it for my mom as it was her dying wish. Or stand strong and continue to feel guilty even thou I did nothing wrong.
    #Mothers #BereavedMothersDay #mother #ChildAbuse #RapeSurvivors #adolescent sexual molestation trauma #Survivor of rape and or molestation

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    Sometimes you have to show yourself

    #SuicideSurvivor #Survivor #fibromyalgiawarrior

    There are times when you have to say theses words…

    Get up

    Get up

    Get up

    Yes not every morning is filled with happiness and bliss. Sometimes you feel like you are so tired but you don’t know why. That’s when you rest your head you rest your body but you don’t stay down you rise.

    Rise and shine

    The call you have times when your in pain you have times when your literally unable to move.

    So you rest for a time in that time IT is up to someone else to shine. While you take a moment to sit back watch and smile.

    Being an independent is hard on you for what ever reason you think you have to be part of the process. The truth is once you have shown the process others know how but will let you do all the work until you ask them to do it or you give it over to them to do.

    Then IT is not up to you IT is up to them!

    So when you burn 🔥 Out you need that rest there is no reason to busy about. Just rest and without a doubt everything will work out.

    The main thing is you rise!

    Don’t stay down…

    Get up

    Get up

    Get up

    Even if for a bit today and a bit tomorrow your still UP!

    Someone out there needs this today!!

    Your important

    Your not alone

    Your worthy

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    Hello, I’m here because I need support and resources to start to heal. I have been dealing with depression and c-ptsd for what feels like all my life. I was recently SA only two days ago and this is the fourth time in my life this has happened to me. I’m still in shock but also numbness and figured it would be best not to be alone and try to get to a good place. #Abuse #sa #SexualAssault #Survivor

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    Tonight

    Tonight I am praying for all of you who want to be seen, heard, and loved. That you may be healed and find strength to persevere always ♥️ #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Depression #SuicideLossSurvivor #Survivor

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    There are so many of you how do we reach you

    Five loaves of bread two fish in a basket

    Remember

    Please be safe be well be loved your worthy

    Don’t forget IT

    #Survivor #Fibromyalgia #onelove #werise

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    When you have to be

    IT requires you to just be you so others can be free from IT too.

    #Survivor #Modivator

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    Self-created guardian

    While in hospital for my mental health, I was taken off of certain medications to be put on new medication. And during this difficult time I started to write poetry. With ADHD I sometimes struggle to put thoughts together in a way that makes sense.. with creative writing I really learned to express how I feel about my situation.

    So I wrote a poem about our inner self-created guardians, the inner children that we have inside us that still tries to protect us from harm even when we no longer need them. Whether we have this guardian because of abuse of any kind, I wrote this piece so that people could relate to having that inner voice that can sometimes be guilt creating, harmful and overwhelming.

    So while off my meds this is how I strung my thoughts together in hopes that I might find someone who can relate.

    The poem’s name is

    Self-created Guardian:

    Sometimes I'm overcome by a shadow and marked unsafe by feelings of madness,guilt,badness...sadness

    That my own mind runs wild searching for peace, my
    thoughts making me fight with a "ME" that I have
    created out of necessity..

    Now that very creation bothers me not only now and then but incessantly...

    Trying to find a purpose for existing in a world it was not meant for...

    Trying to hold onto the woman that doesn't need her anymore..

    How does one create space in one's mind for a self-created guardian? And still exist as one's own protector? One that I have always been? And never even knew...

    How then do I become truly "ME" without letting go of you? - a poem by Camron Botha

    #MentalHealth #Poetry #creativewriting #Abuse #Survivor #EmotionalAbuse #ADHD #relate #Advocacy #MentalIllness #Love #struggle #medications #poet #Loveothers #wearefamily #Anxiety #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder