Today I woke up and watched my children go to school.

I watched my son go to his class, excited about what would happen on the last few days of school.

I dropped my daughter off, apprehensive over her finals knowing it could determine whether she graduates or not,

I went to school and walked onto campus, excited to see our students today.

I saw my students happy and excited to watch the movie we turned on for them to enjoy.

Today I woke up and watched my children go to school.

I saw my son worried about school shootings after the tragedies that keep occurring all over the country.

I saw my daughter concerned because the most recent one happened with just a few days left of school.

I saw my students unconcerned about things but asking questions anyway and my coworkers’ and I having to find an age-appropriate way to explain the tragedy to a room of students with a myriad of disabilities.

I saw my coworkers' and myself worrying about how to keep our students safe should the worst happen on our campus.

Today the parents of 19 children woke up and were not able to watch their children go to school.

Instead they had to provide DNA to identify their children because a teenager was able to obtain a weapon he had no business having.

They started planning funerals and memorials instead of graduation parties and summer vacations.

Today the staff at a school mourned the loss of two of their own.

Teachers who gave their lives for the children they loved and taught.

Teachers whose only jobs should have been to teach children, not lose their lives to protect them but willingly gave them anyway.

Today I woke up and watched my children go to school.

And with fear and worry I will continue to do so and hope this doesn’t happen to us.

Today I woke up and watched my children go to school.

And I will come to my campus with trepidation and worry that this will happen to me and how the staff and I will protect the children our care.

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