Can you hold my hand while I chart these stormy waters ...
While I try and cope with the fallout of my angel's pain ...
Hold me up so I can be a constant beacon of love and light in the very dark place she is in.

My heart is breaking, my soul feels like it is being ripped apart, my world is spinning out of control.

I have tears that I cannot cry ...
Words I cannot express ...
Anger I dare not vent ...

I am bewildered, frightened and sad ...
I dare not close my eyes for fear of the images that taint my mind.
I feel as though I have walked into the worst of horror movies but no-one has given me script.

I know it should not be about me at this time, but I can't help it.
I know it is all about my angel who is so tormented by life that she sees death as a welcome release.
I know some may perceive me to be selfish with this my plea ....

Please lend me your comfort, please offer me strength, please guide me and support me so that I can be strong for the one I love so much.

Please because I am not coping on my own.