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Went to my new DBTtherapist today and me and my mom walked in the room and told her all about what crazy feelings and emotions were happening in my life! She was so kind and understanding!! i swear she didn’t have an ounce of judgement and thought that me and my moms matching outfits were adorable!! I was told this year would be a wonderful year full of surprises by many people and even psychic’s! turns out things are going really well for only the first few days of 2020! i feel like a new me and hopefully i can learn to manage my anger and numerous emotions of plenty through the new year! i finally feel like i can overcome and be myself without being ashamed! My new therapist office is completely lavender coloured and my mom and i had matching out fits of mint and rose colors, even our glasses too today! As we left the office i realised that mint and rose makes lavender and i felt like this women was going to help change my life for the better! I’m so excited for my next session! Wish me luck guys! 😁💜💙💖
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I was told that added to my other issues that this is a new one for me. I was in denial...about a year later and new psychiatrist confirmed yes I do have BPD. I cried and cried and I feel honestly since seeing the psychiatrist about a month ago, I have been in a whole different planet this is constantly on my mind I feel bad for my. teens at home especially my 15 year old daughter cause people always say she acts like me and I think no my estranged mother most of all my husband I have been listening to all kinds of audio books and some to help me with my daughter my son has autism and epilepsy then my husband I love him dearly yet I think he is a gigantic narcissist who I once was able to say anything to him personal. I told him things no one else ever knew.... he now throws it all back in my face when we fight ... I need to find help for ALL of us .... I hate the way I am!!
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What does one do when they’re been discarded by an undiagnosed but apparent BPD? My husband and I have been helping our BPD cousin (young adult) after he lost his grandmother 3 months ago. He’s had a tragic life and we were happy to help him in all ways practical and emotional. The three of us became very close and he became like a son to us. Suddenly he became very critical of some work we did for him at his house, and then started to ignore us. This has gone on for 2 weeks. Now he is ignoring us completely and has not responded to our texts that we love him, want to talk and get back on track etc. Last night I texted him and said we are under the impression he no longer wants to have. a relationship with us and to please let me know if he feels differently, which he ignored. So now I just don’t know what to do or what to expect. I’m starting to believe he truly doesn’t want us in his life. Any advice or help would be much appreciated. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPDFam #bpdnightmare

Because our newly dx borderline daughter is now 20 we're outsiders to her care. Her therapist sees her 1x wk w/ a DBT group 1x wk. Therapist has spoken to me a couple of times & based on her tone she has clearly bought the lies that our daughter sells to anyone who doesn't know us. Daughter is frequently raging & is abusive to us, saying her Dad and I trigger her rage. We suggested part-hosp when she last crashed after disassociating & she asked me to please help her. Therapist says she's fine tho because she doesn't hear truth. We feel disrespected &stuck. Is therapist even BPDqualified?

Can you hold my hand while I chart these stormy waters ...
While I try and cope with the fallout of my angel's pain ...
Hold me up so I can be a constant beacon of love and light in the very dark place she is in.

My heart is breaking, my soul feels like it is being ripped apart, my world is spinning out of control.

I have tears that I cannot cry ...
Words I cannot express ...
Anger I dare not vent ...

I am bewildered, frightened and sad ...
I dare not close my eyes for fear of the images that taint my mind.
I feel as though I have walked into the worst of horror movies but no-one has given me script.

I know it should not be about me at this time, but I can't help it.
I know it is all about my angel who is so tormented by life that she sees death as a welcome release.
I know some may perceive me to be selfish with this my plea ....

Please lend me your comfort, please offer me strength, please guide me and support me so that I can be strong for the one I love so much.

Please because I am not coping on my own.

Hi all. I don’t really know much about myself but I’m a 31 year old single mom of 2 boys aged 7 and 3. I suffered with mental health since the age of 16 with doctors undecided if I had bipolar or manic depression finally got diagnosed with BPD when my eldest son was about 3-4. I sit everyday racked with guilt that I am damaging my children’s mental health then seeing me up and down. I have no value for my life I never have but the last 2-3 years after the father of my youngest disowned my eldest and made my worse I made the decision to live and value my life for my children’s sake. I will not ever have my babies think they weren’t enough for me to keep fighting to see them grow and I can’t leave them I’m a cold world alone. I find it so hard to do normal mom things like pretend play, making up stories or just going out with them I also have difficulties with anxiety and depression every idea I have is wrapped in catastrophising and black and white thinking. I am on a steps skills course to help understand my filters and emotions but alone with two children makes it so hard to recap what I learn throughout the week. I hardly read about any single moms or dads dealing with BPD and never post anything anywhere I don’t use social media because I’m too sensitive and can be a big trigger. I know I have to stay strong and in faith. God bless you all 🙏🏾😩❤️ #BorderlinePersonalityDisorderBPD #BPD parent #Bpdmommy #BPDFam

I grew up with a mom with BPD and an emotionally abusive father. I swore to myself I would be nothing like them. Fast forward while I’m reeling from a divorce and I now see that I continued the cycle I grew up in. I took the worst of my parents and was that.

I was emotionally, mentally and verbally violent. I was so desperate to be with someone that I married the first person who said they would consider it and a week after meeting her. I’ve always been compulsive but admittedly I never paid attention to my behavior.

Had I done that I would have known I was being compulsive and desperate. I would have known that the need to be needed wasn’t love. I would have looked at the pattern in my previous relationships. My own self sabotaging behaviors. How I love you one minute and hate you the next but want you stay. I would be wonderful and engaged until I wasn’t. I took on every interest of my partner. I tried different love styles for my partners ( I can safely say I’m not polyamorous).

I never stopped to think how my trauma would impact me. I’m going to spend a good year in therapy before I start dating again if then. I’m so tired of the mental and emotional exhaustion. I’m so tired of the anxiety, rage, depression and emptiness. I want to know what my life looks like and what I feel like when I’m in control of my emotions. I’ve been in therapy 4 months and I know I still have a long way to go. But I want to do it. I need to do it. I want to be healthy and healthy relationships.

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