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When Psychosis Feels Like a Bully

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I always question whether I have done something so terrible in my life to have deserved developing psychosis. I was bullied badly for six years straight when I was a child, but it feels like it hasn’t stopped.

You’re fat, you’re so ugly! Why do you always do everything wrong? No one likes you. All your friends hate you. They’re plotting against you. Everyone wants you dead. They’re all in on the government’s plan to kill you! Don’t eat that, it’s poisoned.

The voices are an endless torture. You try so hard to keep yourself together, to just be “normal.” But it’s hard when it feels as though people are standing behind you, saying all these horrible things.

It’s exhausting. The bullying hasn’t stopped.

If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page.

If you need support right now, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text “START” to 741-741.

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Originally published: February 2, 2017
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