Yeah. My neighbor brought me a cigarette and told me that knocking on her door and asking for a cigarette doesn't work for her. I brought her a box of squiggly noodles cuz I don't eat pasta. I simply asked her if she had any cigarettes and she said no so I said ok sorry for bothering you, have a nice day. I always try to be polite and courteous. I offered to buy her a pack of cigarettes on Wednesday but she told me to use the money for myself.

Truth is, I don't have many friends in Michigan and all of them are at least a half hour away from me. So I got excited to have a new friend. Remember, I'm a puppy. And my ilk are pack animals. I don't have a pack. I have a girlfriend that I love dearly and she told me that she wishes she was local to me so I would never be alone. Which is sweet but not realistic. I'm not moving out of Michigan. I finally got stable and happy. Mostly happy.

Ok maybe I'm not happy. I thought I could convince myself if I said it enough times. It didn't work.#relation #MentalHealth #Smoking #lonely