roughpatch

I've got a whole lot on my plate right now. The end of a long-term relationship/loss of my other half means a lot of changes are happening (and even more are coming). Sometimes I think I can handle it. Then days like today happen and I'm not sure I'll ever be OK again.

My anxiety is in overdrive. I don't know what's coming. I haven't planned for this kind of life change. I know I'm supposed to take it one step at a time, but I don't know HOW to do that. My brain is already seventeen steps ahead and I'm completely overwhelmed. In turn, my depression takes over and even the little, previously manageable things are now impossible tasks, looming over me. If it weren't for my dogs and my job, I don't think I'd ever be able to get out of bed most mornings.

I'm sure I could be doing more to help myself. I've only been on a few walks lately. I haven't been eating very well. But where do I find the motivation? How do I help myself when I don't even feel like I want to be helped? I know this will pass (it HAS to pass), but for now... It's just rough. #Depression #Anxiety #roughpatch #gettingthroughthis #CheckInWithMe