A few days ago, for the first time in a looong while, I picked up a gorgeous fresh loaf of sourdough. My partner has a baking degree and is very passionate about bread, we both same food with carbs when everything else is too difficult to eat. We’ve both had “unexplainable” digestion/bowel issues, indigestion, etc. after eating it.

Being in cyclical poverty, being trans, being fat, being autistic and physically disabled, having cognitive struggles and still being stuck in this hellacious city is taking so much of the very very limited capacity we have left. Realizing that gluten, the thing that is always a good texture, is something that hurts us has been devastating for me. It feels like even the small constants, the small joys are too much for the universe to let me have. I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired. #selfpityfeels #Autistic #Existentialdepression #Fibromyalgia ##CWFOOD