shitshow

I'm lost, numb and my brain is in complete denial. I'm unable to comprehend that she's just not across town or back in my hometown still doing her thing. We was always a team since I was born. Just her and me.
My momma took her last breath at 10:26 a.m on February 25th ,2025. I was notified the day after the fact with the funeral home calling me to set up an appointment to go over the paperwork. The adult family home swore that they would call me if they thought she was close to leaving. And they robbed me of that final goodbye.
That was her one fear that she would die alone. And I swore I would be there. And I'll never be able to get that back.
Then to" put icing on the cake" as they say, my biological mother asks me by text if "I would do her the honor of being my Mother again. That she regretted giving me up the very moment I was handed over to my adoptive mom, aka her older sister. I know it's complicated. I was adopted within the family. Karen, whom I've always known as my mother, wasn't able to have children due to ovarian cyst complications. So when Bobbie, bio mom and also the baby sister of 5 girls had gotten pregnant out of wedlock it seemed like the perfect decision to do.
Now mourning the loss of your mom is heart wrenching enough, now let's add this lovely situation into the mix. I replied that I didn't know, that it was too soon
So I guess what I'm asking is what would you do in my situation? I don't want to be alone without a mom (dad isn't in the picture); but on the other hand I don't want to disrespect My late mother by saying yes....what a mess #Mourning #shitshow #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

This rang true for me during this time which has been hard but also positive in some ways. #Depression #DBT #shitshow #Silverlining