One of the saddest things in life is growing up and realizing that no matter what, no doctor or medication will ever help your pain and most people will never give you the chance at love.
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To my toxic mother,
I’ve thought over this long and hard. I am estranging myself from you. I can not handle your negativity any more.
When it’s hard for me to even attempt the negative talk that goes in my head. And you are telling me more to my face.
You are supposed to be someone who I can turn to for help, except you turn me away when I really need you. You should be there for your children at any age. No questions asked. I’m sorry if it may hurt you. But I think it hurts me worse.
Especially when I have heard the lies that you have been spreading about me.
When I try to talk to you about the help I need and you turn me away like a stranger. But I’m not a stranger. I’m your child in desperate need.
I’ve thought it over again, and you chose someone over me who sexually abused me when I was a child. This is totally unacceptable!
I hope one day I may forgive you. And you will change. But I don’t see that. I don’t know what your grandchildren will ask me. But I will tell them when they are older.
I’m not sorry for getting rid of something that brings me down. Like someone pushing me under water. I just hope the both know of us can heal fast. But I don’t see that happening.
I'm so tired of saying I'm sorry that I'm so sorry for being sorry. I would probably feel better about myself if I didn't think I had to apologize for every little thing. #sorrynotsorryanymore
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