We did a couples session today. Last night we did a 9 questions journal prompts and I sent it to my therapist this morning. It was a really good page. Some of the questions were pretty deep.

I just had pauley put some CBD cream on my back and hips. I tried to make a little snack in the kitchen and OMG my back started screaming after 5 minutes. Pauley asked what I need and I sat down and directed her on finishing my coffee. Luckily my sandwich was done already. I'm so lucky to have her.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I'm turning 5 with 36 years of experience. Tomorrow for dinner I'm gonna make a garlic butter spinach and smoked gruyere quiche for dinner. I'm excited.

Next culinary adventure will be lamb meatballs with fresh homemade tzatziki sauce. I'm having trouble finding ground lamb.

I can't handle making dinner tonight cuz my back is trashed. I always feel useless when it gets like this. I just gotta hold on till the 31st when I get my X-rays. I'll actually get the results before my doctor.

I'm very anxious. When my lumbar got bad, we found out that I had epidural lipomatosis. Basically fat tissue was crushing my root nerve. My concern is if it was crushing my lumbar, what's the chances it isn't crushing my thoracic and cervical spine too?

I know my cervical spine has a lot of arthritis. I imagine it's effecting my entire spine. So after I get the results, I'll get in touch with my back surgeon and go from there. My hips can't be fixed but my back can. I'm being as proactive and involved in my health care as possible.

I'm thinking about getting some air drying clay to play with here at home. If I enjoy it I might look into sculpture class at a local college.

I'm really tired. I fell asleep early on the couch with Pauley last night. But I didn't take my night meds till after 3am. And I kept waking up every 45 minutes. I think I woke up at 8am.

It's been a day.#Relationships #BackPain #spinalepidurallipomatosis