When Calling Into 'Dawson Radio' Saved My Life

I know what it feels like to have no one. To feel all alone. To feel like no one cares about you or how you feel. I am a survivor of suicidal thoughts and depression.

When I was at my lowest point in life, when I thought the only thing I could do was end my life because I was just a “troublemaker” who wouldn’t amount to anything, I was listening to the radio. Suddenly, this talk show came on. It was The Hope Line’s radio show, Dawson Radio.

This guy comes on and says he accepts calls from anyone who may need help. He says he’s not a licensed therapist, but he does all he can to help those who call. They also have licensed therapists and counselors waiting to talk to you.

I remember sitting in my room just crying. Trying to figure out what the point of my life was anymore. I ended up calling the show and just breaking down. I talked to a trained professional about everything that was on my mind for over four hours.

I never expected anyone to actually listen or talk me through what I was going through. But they did. After four hours I hung up the phone and just cried as I realized how close I had come to ending it all over things that seemed so big at the time.

I know it’s kind of a cheesy thing to say, but this radio show saved my life.

I honestly don’t know where I would be if I hadn’t heard that show that night. I am how five years older and I couldn’t be happier. I feel so blessed some days it’s unreal. My life feels almost like a dream.

Please, if you feel like there is no hope, like everything is falling apart, please talk to someone. Anyone. Your friend, family, your priest or bishop. Your old grade school teacher. Someone. I’m always here as well.

Just know there is hope. Things will get better.

I know because I have been there. I struggled with suicidal thoughts and depression for years before I realized how much life had to offer. Sometimes it knocks you down, but eventually you get up, you dust yourself off and you walk away stronger than you were.

If you or someone you know needs help, visit our suicide prevention resources page. 

If you need support right now, call the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.