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Depression Stole My Brother's 'Perfect' Life

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“I love you all. Bye.”

This was one of the last texts I received from my brother Gregg, before he took his own life at age 35. Once I saw the text on my phone, my heart sank to the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was going to be sick. I knew what was coming and I begged him not to do anything. He proceeded to tell me that he was sorry for hurting me and he would never be healthy.

You see, Gregg died by suicide, but depression took his life. Gregg did not want to die. He wanted to end the pain.

Gregg had a “perfect life.”  Gregg-xmas-300x241

He was good looking, brilliant, successful, athletic, witty and had the best belly laugh. Gregg graduated third in his class from Charlotte Catholic High School, graduated Summa Cum Laude from Virginia Tech, was captain of the Virginia Tech swim team, won countless scholar athlete awards, traveled around the world, was fluent in Italian, played water polo, developed a patent for removing pollutants from coal burning plants and at the time of his death, was a commercial director for General Electric.

His life looked perfect on paper. But depression stole that perfect life from Gregg.

The pain, darkness and despair of depression made life too hard to live. Gregg wanted to live. We didn’t learn of his depression until after his first suicide attempt. Afterward when he tried to get help, he waited until it was too late. He worked hard at getting better but his depression was too deep.

Hindsight is 20/20. Gregg-and-Drew-300x271

Looking back, we now realize Gregg was napping a lot, would withdraw at times and would often change plans at the last minute.

Mental Health America has coined the term “B4Stage4.” With all physical illnesses, there are symptoms that occur before an illness reaches Stage 4. You treat your cough, your high blood pressure or your blood sugar before you are on death’s doorstep. We need to be aware of the symptoms of depression and mental illness so those who are struggling silently get the help they need before they reach Stage 4.

Last year, my family walked in our first Out of the Darkness Walk for The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. Our team was called TEAM GREGG and we raised almost $20,000. This year, in honor of my brother, I am a co-chair for the Charlotte Walk. This is the only fundraiser in Charlotte that promotes hope and healing for survivors of suicide. This walk also brings awareness to suicide prevention activities in our community and brings mental health awareness to the forefront.

Depression and mental illness have a stigma attached to them and this is often the reason people don’t get the help they need. This is why I have chosen to be a voice for this cause.


A few weeks ago on Sept. 8, many members of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention waited outside the Good Morning America building in NYC with their “Be the Voice” #stopsuicide t-shirts on in hopes of spreading awareness for Suicide Prevention Week. Sadly, GMA asked them to move aside and take their signs with them. A GMA staff member was quoted saying: “It is the top of our morning show. We don’t want suicide on the brain.”

Well, let me tell you. Once you experience suicide first hand, you always have suicide on the brain. Everyone should have suicide on the brain.

Did you know…

We all need to #BeTheVoice and help make a change. Depression and mental illness need just as much attention as physical illnesses. Join me in this fight.

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think suicide would affect my family. Never did I think suicide would change my life forever. Never did I think my children would grow up without their amazing uncle in their lives. Never did I think I would lose a sibling at such a young age.

And trust me, never would you, until it does.

If you are interested in helping me fight this battle in honor of my beloved baby brother Gregg, here is my fundraising link.


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Originally published: November 9, 2016
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