I tried to give blood today. Which TERRIFIES me. Made the appt a week ago. Made sure to start slurping tons of water last night. Asked my mom for a ride, since she was headed that way too. Got ready, went with mom ***deep breaths***, gave the front desk my name, signed up, waited ***deep breaths***, was called back, answered all the questions, got a finger poked to check my iron. Too low. What the hell!? The sweet lady offered to try again since I was barely under the mark. That poke ended up with even less iron. Uggghh.... I tried to be brave. I'm trying to be okay that I couldn't do it and that I'm not a failure, because I TRIED. But my brain is being an asshole and telling me different.
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