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    Any tips for when you feel like a loser? :(

    Sorry if it sounds negative but any tips for when you’re feeling really low about yourself/ your life? Thanks 🙏

    Appreciate any little pick me ups or those who can relate to this sometimes :c #lonely #sad #down #Low #hardonmyself #loser #lowselfesteem #Trying # headspace #Depression #Anxiety #Pickmeup #Tips #Selflove #Quotes #bad day #beatingmyselfupemotionally #selfsabotage #wantselflove #wanttoworkonselfcompassion

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    What helps you when you’re too harsh on yourself?

    Feeling lonely and ashamed of my anxiety/ depression and the struggles that come along with it #Anxiety #Shame #lonely #help #coping #Selflove #Trying #Support

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    Help with work anxiety

    :) I am at a new job and usually struggle to find or keep employment, so far everyone is nice and the training is better than at other places, but guess don’t want to feel alone in my struggles hiding my mental health at the workplace, maybe eventually I can reach out for help if they are accommodating, they offer some mental health supports partnerships so I’m incredibly lucky. Thanks for any tips and sharing your own story or struggles with work anxiety.

    😊🙂🙂💕🙏 💼
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    #Newjob #Anxiety #coping #Trying #Hardwork #DoingMyBest #Hope #New #Life #struggles #Selflove #patience #growing #selfImprovement #resillience #Work #WorkAnxiety #Job #Brave #fears #Journaling #tryingtoovercomefears #SocialAnxiety #Coworkers #Nice #positive #positiveexperience

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    Fighting depression and thoughts of guilt and shame (possible trigger warning? I don't know the etiquette for this platform)

    A letter to myself:

    Artalyn,

    I can see you struggling right now. You're withdrawn and unsure of yourself.

    The spark and confidence I know is in you has dimmed to the faint glow of a firefly somewhere off in the distance. Do you not realize how much of a phoenix you are? So many bad things have happened to you and yet you continually rise from the ashes. Just... don't let yourself burn so hot that you reduce your surroundings to ashes as well while you reform.

    I know a few people already got singed the last time. I regret that but I've tried to make my apologies and I'm moving forward. The people who got hurt may be taking some time to heal from you, but don't count them all out. Some of them will return to you in time. Maybe after flaming out on their own, and you'll be there, experienced in regenerating, and a guide to the other side of the flame.

    Don't let the darkness consume you once the fire goes out. You're only ash for a moment. There's a whole new life waiting for you.

    [Side notes: Focus on who you want to be. You don't always get to choose every aspect of your being, but you can choose and work towards certain things. You can be kinder to yourself and others, find new ways to express yourself, walk away from unhealthy habits, and seek out good influences. Who do you want to be this time, phoenix?]

    #Depression #Anxiety #Guilt #Shame #tryingtodobetter #Trying #lettertomyself #Phoenix #ArtTherapy #writingisgoodtherapy #getsomesleep

    Photo of a painting I've been working on for a few years off and on (I'm a slow progress creative with ADHD symptoms; I do the best I can). One day I'll finish it. 🤞

    Tldr: Art 🎨

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    My New Idea Of A Good Time

    Did you know that Otis Redding missed the 27 Club by just one year? Janis Joplin openly admitted to being inspired by him (and countless others I’m sure!). Janis supposedly changed her singing style after they sang together at Monterrey Festival. Yes, I am a bit of a hippy slash music trivia nerd 🤓

    Anyway I love this song and cannot help but think of it when I see this picture. This was my first post hospital outing about a week ago. Who knew simply sitting on a bench, just sipping a cup of tea, could feel like such a luxury… pure bliss after 8 weeks of confinement.

    Original lyrics by Otis Redding

    Altered to be fall / autumn appropriate 🍂

    Sittin' in the mornin' sun

    I'll be sittin' when the afternoon comes

    Watching the leaves roll by

    Then I watch 'em blow away again, yeah

    I'm sittin' on the slats of the bench

    Watchin' the time roll away, ooh

    I'm just sittin' on this wooden bench

    Soakin’ up time

    Left my home with my dogs and partner

    Headed for the Cotswold border

    'Cause I've had nothin' lately to live for

    It look like nothin's gonna come my way

    So I'm just gon' sit on the slats of this bench

    Watchin' the leaves roll away, ooh

    I'm sittin' watchin autumn’s alter, wastin' time

    Look like nothin's gonna change

    Everything still remains the same

    Ten doctors couldn’t tell me what to do

    So I guess I'll remain the same, yes

    Sittin' here restin' my tired bones

    And this loneliness won't leave me alone,

    Two thousand medical miles, I’ve roamed

    Just to make this perch my home

    Now I'm just gon' sit, on this wooden bench

    Watchin' the leaves roll on by, ooh yeah

    Sittin' on the slats of the bench

    Enjoyin’ time

    #Music #musicislife #MusicIsSavingMyLife #Poetry #poetrytherapy #Nature #MentalHealth #Depression #Disability #Hypothyroidism #mycotoxins #newnormal #MyCondition #Trying #thisismetrying

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    Trying to Live

    I am trying to live with a mind that's constantly high or low; with no in betweens! Sometimes it's hard to face myself. Sometimes it's just hard to live, period.

    I wake up to fight the same demons that I fought yesterday; it's a daily struggle! I'm just trying to live in this world but I must admit that these suicidal thoughts paralize me sometimes.

    I know that on a physical level I'm alive but on an emotional level I feel dead inside like I am ready to collapse because I'm drowning in my sorrow and pain. . . .

    Being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is very hard to accept because people judge you and try to make you feel like you're not normal; in reality normal doesn't exist anyway.

    Having BPD and dealing with such intense emotions and struggling to even know who you are sometimes can make one feel hopeless honestly speaking but as a suicide attempt survivor I am not going to give up this fight!

    Yes; trying to live with BPD is extremely difficult but I know I am not alone. I know I survived for a bigger purpose than myself. I know that I am more than my diagnosis. My identity is not defined by my mental illness.

    I am trying to live, to do better, to survive, to have hope, to love again, to dream again, to fight, to be strong, and be brave in this life.

    Because as long as I am breathing, there is life in me and that means there is purpose in me and I will never give up on that and neither should you.

    We can fight this. We're in this together!

    #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Trying #Suicide #SuicideAwareness #SuicidePrevention #Life #SuicidalThoughts #youmatter #fight #notalone #keepfighting #NeverGiveUp #Pain #sorrow #despair #Depression #BPD

    Question

    Why do people say “why do you have to make it about you?

    It isn’t like I do it purposely. Someone does/says something it evokes emotions/thoughts in me….

    I used to bottle them up, but that just led to me then having a “me moment,” aka an explosive moment.

    Over enough time I have tried expressing and it actually helped a lot.made a friendship better..

    ….I still get told “why do you always make it about you?” When I express. Which they told me to! They get…however if I bottle up or if I let it out.

    It isn’t about me! But it did make me feel/think something and I am trying to figure out if it is real or in my head!! #BPD #Trying #damnedifyoudo

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    July 8th..

    Well, today was the day. I am finally rid of you on paper, and I will no longer have your last name. You abused me in every way. You left me with so much trauma to deal with. So even though I am rid of you on paper, sadly not rid of you like I want to be. You destroyed the person I use to be, I allowed you to. Because I loved you. I loved you more than I loved myself.

    It’s insane to me how you could spend 8+ years with someone.. know them inside and out, go through so much shit, and then all in one day, turn to nothing. But that’s just it, I’ve always been nothing to you. And I’ve known that, I just wanted you to love me. I just wanted to be enough for you. You always told me how I made you feel loved, I just wanted to feel that way.

    But you had better things to focus on, which was you. You were taking care of you, I was taking care of you. Meanwhile no one was taking care of me. You made me hate who I was. You made me a nobody. You kept me from the people who loved me the most.

    In 8 years you made/gave me an alcoholic, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, and WORST of all ptsd. For the love of GOD I should have put you in jail when I had the chance, but I loved you. And I forgave you. For everything.. that’s one of the hardest things to do is forgive someone who isn’t sorry.

    Now all I want is myself. I want my life back, I don’t want memories. But that’s all I’m stuck with. I will never be the person I was..

    I will now be better, stronger.
    I’m not sure how I’ll get through this. But I know I will. Because that’s all I know how to do is fight, and survive, except I’ll get to a point where I’ll be living NOT just surviving.

    One day you will no longer be in my thoughts, memories. The trauma you caused me will no longer control me. You’ll just fade away.

    Until then, I’ll keep fighting.

    #RapeSurvivors #PTSD #Anxiety #startingover #Divorced #movingforward #Trying #Goodenough

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    #feelings are Real

    Hey Everyone.
    Today I looked at myself in the mirror and I about screamed. I feel bloated, feel fat, feel disgusted, and for some reason just plain emotional. It has not been a good experience today for me... even if all I did was just go grocery shopping with a little bit of cleaning. I did have a #Therapy appointment today, which was helpful. I do not think of myself as a person who has a weight problem. However, it has been a problem for me since I had been on psyche medicines, and my body changed. I am not 25 years old anymore. The past 10 years have been difficult for me as I have seen myself slowly gain weight! I am on new #medications that do not have studies showing that there is significant weight gains. However, I still feel struggling when it comes to body image.

    For those of you who take #psychemedicines - how do you feel?
    What do you do to handle this?
    Any advice will be greatly welcomed. Please respond.

    #Desperate
    #depressed
    #Trying
    #BipolarDisorder
    #Anxiety

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    The Power of Love

    How do I put into words what it is that I am feeling right now? I am confused and wishing I could be just neutral.

    I went shopping a little while ago, and on my way home my husband called me. He told me I should not have went shopping and spent money. I bought him some things for father's day and when I mentioned I got him some things, he became upset. It is because I don't have a job. He was upset with me about us having one income and going shopping.

    He told me to not put up roadblocks into me finding a job, or doing what it is that I want to do. Professionalism is not something that comes easy for me, and with my mental health issues it's harder than that of a person without them. It is not an excuse to stay where I am, but it does not make it as easy as someone else's level of difficulty. I know everyone experiences difficulties. I swear it will be OK. I just have to find something that I love to do and go for it.

    Today is a day of mixed emotions. It's driving me nuts... But it's something that I have to deal with. I am hoping for a better tomorrow since today is a Mix of a Mess and a Blessing.

    Take Care.

    #Love #Trying #iamhere #sad #happy #MixedMood #Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #jobless #lonely #notalone #up &Down #PanicAttack #PanicDisorder #Crazy #Wild #calm #confused #shoppingaddiction #Mourning #grieving #Grief #FathersDay #dowhatyoulove #lovewhatyoudo #Loveislove #PrideMonth #Trying #doing