I know full well that this person is busy, working and has family stuff going on but my anxiety keeps telling me otherwise. It keeps telling me she hates me, I scared her off and she wants nothing to do with me. I keep wanting to text her and ask her to forgive me for whatever I did. But I’m afraid I’ve already pushed my friend to far with my panic attacks and this would just push her over the edge. My brain keeps circling telling me that she’s just trying to nicely drop hints that she doesn’t want to be my friend any longer and she regrets to ever saying yes to hang out. I’m getting ready to move and I want us to have a proper goodbye. But my anxiety keeps telling me she doesn’t want to see me. Then my anxiety is arguing with itself saying to just do it over text but then the other side is saying no she’s at work I don’t want to make her cry. Though the selfish side says not to do it because I don’t want her to laugh at me to our coworkers. I don’t rationally think she would but I’m just afraid she will turn on me. Then the storm just cycles back around an endless wheel. #Anxiety #spirallingthoughts #talkmedown #CheckInWithMe #help