I have never been one that has particularly wanted or counted on getting married and having kids. But after my latest diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and EDS, the doctor told me that if I ever try to have kids I will have a LOT of miscarriages and might never be able to carry them to term. I can't explain the heartbreak I felt in that moment. A punch in the gut to a part of me I never realized was so tender.
Things are great until what you were confident you had gets taken away. Struggling to come to terms with it. How silly I am, I think to myself as I wipe away the tears when I get to thinking about my terribly poor health. I purposely have chosen not to get in a relationship with anyone because I knew my pain and bad health would be such a struggle for raising a family, but still it hurts. Not sure how many more life-shaking diagnosis I can handle. I pray to God that I only have a few more left. 10 syndromes are way too many to hand to a 23 year old.

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