Depression and anxiety are debatably the most misunderstood and quickest-to-judge of all diseases, let alone mental health illnesses. It's difficult to explain to someone who is supportive why I cry to release the weight of the world I feel on my shoulders, an impending doom; why I feel alone even in a crowded room and yet I am never truly alone, as these demons are my dark passengers, silent but brutal; why I chew my nails, experience panic attacks, slight paranoia if I'm being honest, self destruct, self harm, self hate. I'm exhausted from feeling exhausted; I know the dishes need to be done and I should cook dinner but the dishes can wait and fast food is easier. Please leave me alone but don't leave me. Allowing this vicious circle consume my life, my personality, my goals, me as defined by those things, or lack thereof, are hindering my relationships and that can not be. No more. No more self medicating with alcohol, no more silencing my voice, no more hiding behind smiles, no more putting myself last. Today I am reborn and I am ready to receive all the beauty life has yet to offer me.
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