tryingnottogiveup

I am so depressed and have the worst self-esteem. I feel like my family, basically the whole world, would be better off if I weren’t here. Meds either don’t help or have terrible side effects. I’ve battled this since 2000... almost 20 years. It has just gotten worse through time. Denied I was dealing with mental illness for the first 10 years and halfway treated it for next 6 years. I have been hospitalized twice in past three+ years and had to leave my job as a special education teacher last year. I quit when my fear of failing overwhelms me. I just want to release my family from the burden I place on them.
#needrelief #tryingnottogiveup