Within the last year I have miscarried twins, a week later my aunty died of undiagnosed pneumonia, 2 weeks after that my uncle told me he had cancer and he died in May only 6 months after being first diagnosed (I blame the doctors). Even going through all this I feel numb and unattached from everything, especially my emotions. I have sudden outbursts of crying or anger but they usually start over things completely unrelated. I feel stuck as I cant express my emotions without an outburst, I've tried therapy and now I feel like a horrible person because I cany grieve for the things I've lost properly...