#COVID19 #Wegners #GranulomatosisWithPolyangiitis

My 19 yo son just heard last night that the girl he shared a blunt with a few days ago is having COVID-19 symptoms, and is waiting to hear test results. Shit, shit, shit!!

We live in a small 2 bedroom apartment together and he had been trying to be very cautious on my behalf (compromised immune system and lung problems due to GPA). But he had started getting restless and more careless recently and I reminded him that nothing had changed as far as risk of this virus... now he tells me this happened...

We are setting up for self quarantine within our confines... I have my own half bath but there is only one shower in the unit. We have to share the kitchen unless I just leave meals for him...??

So worried but at the same time just worn down, and hopeless, I almost hope that we just get it, and all this ends...

We both have mental health issues, and went through a horrific divorce with his Father and myself... we both have PTSD from the experience. This all just seems like too much to bear, and we discussed the underlying relief that we may be able to die to escape without the stigma and survivors’ burden left behind from suicide. I’m not able to share this emotional hot mess with anybody else so I’m posting here...