I stay stuck. In my mind and thoughts. I disassociate everything and avoid it. I ignore reality.
I have wasted years of my life by crawling into this shell. I want out. I don’t want to be here. How can I get out?
Tried medications. Tried this and that. Avoidance isn’t the answer. House is a wreck. Can’t move. I’m stuck.
Have a relationship with a great man. My grown kids live with me and it holds us back. They won’t leave or pay anything. Their dad was the same way. I want out. They you can have it all.
Help me get out of my shell. Help me to stop wasting my life. Years gone. Help me to live. To find my place is all I hope for.