There was a time when I would have tried almost anything just to feel okay again.

Anything that promised relief. Anything that promised peace. Anything that could somehow quiet my mind for a little while or erase the ache I was carrying. I wasn’t trying to run from God. I was simply trying to outrun the pain.

Trauma has a way of convincing you that if you could just find the right answer,the right book, the right breakthrough, or the right way to heal, everything inside you would finally settle. I spent so much of my energy searching for the thing that would finally make me feel safe again.

Then one day I found myself sitting in Psalm 139. “Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence?”

Oh my… For the first time, I realised I didn’t need to keep searching for somewhere to run. The One who heals had never stopped walking beside me. Before I ever cried out to Him, He was already there. Before I understood what trauma had done to my mind, He already knew. Before I could explain why I reacted the way I did, He already understood.

Rest assured… Our Heavenly Father is trauma informed.

He knows what happened to you. He knows the memories that still hurt. He knows the thoughts you struggle with, the ones that seem to appear out of nowhere and settle in before you’ve even realised they’re there. There isn’t a single part of your story that catches Him by surprise. There is nothing He doesn’t know.

As I kept walking with Him, something slowly began to change. Not overnight, not all at once, but little by little. When those thoughts tried to settle in and play on repeat, He gently taught me to take them captive with one word.

Jesus.

Before fear had a chance to convince me it was telling the truth.

Jesus.

Before shame settled in.

Jesus.

Before my mind disappeared down another spiral.

Jesus.

There is power in that name, my friend. Because it belongs to the One who has never left your side. The One who knows every wound, every trigger, every tear, every question, every setback, and every thought you’ve been too afraid to tell another soul.

And please hear my heart when I say this.

There are some amazing, God given ways to help us heal from trauma. Counselling, therapy, support services, learning about the nervous system, healthy community, and other tools can all play a beautiful part in healing. I pray the Lord leads you to the help you need, because asking for support is not weakness,it’s wisdom.

But put Jesus at the centre of it all.

Let Him walk with you through every appointment, every prayer, every setback, every breakthrough, and every step forward.

Because when He’s at the centre… You’ll never have to heal alone.

- Little Sparrow Loved

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