Ships Passing in the Night
My family are like Ships passing in the night.
So much distance and darkness covering our ability to connect with eachother.
We don't know eachother, while I crave some closeness.
But once we are close, its like pirates on board.
Anger, rage, assumptions and a chaotic environment.
I have no one to lean on in my family.
So I rely on myself only, a lone ship, an island, betting the odds with the world around me.
I tried to connect with them, but it was quite one sided, I made all the effort, it got tiring.
One ship really drifted out to sea, far far away, never to be seen again.
We all are getting older and far apart.... it feels so solemn.
I am an orphan with several siblings and 2 parents.
But I'll keep signaling my flashing light to the other ships for whatever its worth, even when they don't flash back.
I am so sad.