Loneliness
Anyone up for chat?
I joined a group on Facebook for lonely people looking for friends and people to talk to. I've had a lot of good conversations. Then today I got a message from someone. It started ok but he asked me what mental health conditions I have and I told him. Then he asked me to define them all. Fuck my head hurts and I'm not going to define shit, use Google.
Then he asked if I was ok talking to a Muslim which doesn't phase me cuz as long as he's respectful of me I'm fine. I am not prejudiced against anyone except people who hurt animals and children.
So he says he can help me overcome being trans and depressed. I'm like dude I am fine, I'm just lonely. He said he thought I was depressed.
Well he stopped responding so I blocked him.
And now I'm super thirsty and in a lot of pain. My entire back is seizing up.
Last night I tried to make a turkey roll up. I used a red pepper hummus flavored tortilla wrap but when I took a bite omg so spicy! I even dipped in ranch dressing. I ate 2 bites trying to just muscle through it but I was really in a lot of pain from the capsaicin. I used half of a tomato too.
I'm really craving chocolate chip or blueberry pancakes.
I think I'm gonna go make a bottle of coffee and just doomscroll FB groups.
Just wanted to share a pretty sunset with you.
How are you doing out there?
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Someone I'm very close to told me they cherish me. A few hours later, that same person insulted me. I understand that people can love us and still not treat us right at times, but this behavior becomes unsafe when you're faced with it regularly. Push and pull is no longer something I can deal with in my personal relationships. My nervous system needs a break for a minute, so today I'm focusing on getting my personal space in order and ignoring everything else.
How are you all holding up out there?
(Pic I took at an aquarium last week)
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Someone a loyal friend let me down.
How do I forgive?
Its just i dont know how to get past it.
She's been loyal apart from that.
Im hard on myself until I take a leap of faith and try and reach past it.
As I am very lonely these days.
I travelled all night
To reach my final destination
- a place called deep despair.
I started off in hope street
Thinking that the journey was the thing
But I realise that it's the cutting edge of a blade
That made my life sting.
Now here I am with the darkness all around me,
No light at the end of the tunnel it seems
Except for my imagination and the world of silent dreams.
I thought I had a future
But this is where it ends
Alone and in the dark
With a few solitary and lonely friends