Loneliness

You come to me at night

When the world outside was dreaming

Too buried in yearnings

Only you could hear me screaming

Embellished in a black robe

Perhaps a shadow or a mist

My long gaze travelled up to your face

You smiled like a dearest friend

I crawled out of my bed.

Slowly lurking towards you.

Raising my hand as if

I could finally touch you

You burnt my heart,

as you passed through me

With an icy coldness

Like snow falling

In an utter hotness

You visit me like an unbidden guest

Hiding invisible like it was your favourite game

I asked why can’t they see you

You said you’re only my friend

My mind felt like it was on fire

I cried cause you were another liar

Like every cage opened in my head

Voices so loud, I couldn’t comprehend

You passed me a sympathetic smile

My dear, it is a forever trial

Are you a ghost of my past?

Am I crazy? I finally asked

You snickered as you spoke so coldly

“Not crazy; just so lonely

You come to me at night

When the world outside was dreaming

Too buried in yearnings

Only you could hear me screaming

Embellished in a black robe

Perhaps a shadow or a mist

My long gaze travelled up to your face

You smiled like a dearest friend

I crawled out of my bed.

Slowly lurking towards you.

Raising my hand as if

I could finally touch you

You burnt my heart as you passed through me

With an icy coldness

Like snow falling

In an utter hotness

You visit me like an unbidden guest

Hiding invisible like it was your favourite game

I asked why can’t they see you

You said you’re only my friend

My mind felt like it was on fire

I cried cause you were another liar

Like every cage opened in my head

Voices so loud, I couldn’t comprehend

You passed me a sympathetic smile

My dear, it is a forever trial

Are you a ghost of my past?

Am I crazy? I finally asked

You snickered as you spoke so coldly

“Not crazy; just so lonely

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#BipolarDisorder

Bipolar disorder causes extreme ups and downs in a person’s mood and energy. People have low-energy moods of depression and high-energy moods called mania (also called manic moods).

Just about everyone goes through ups and downs in their moods. Most of the time, mood changes do not mean a person has bipolar disorder.

Common Signs & Symptoms of Mania

-Showing intense happiness or silliness for a long time

-Having a very short temper or seeming extremely irritable

-Talking very fast or having racing thoughts

-Having an inflated sense of ability, knowledge, and power

-Doing reckless things that show poor judgment

Common Signs & Symptoms of Depression

-Feeling very sad or hopeless

-Feeling lonely or isolating themselves from others

-Eating too much or too little

-Having little energy and no interest in usual activities

-Sleeping too much

Teens and young adults with bipolar disorder symptoms may think and talk about self-harm or suicide. If someone you know is expressing these thoughts, seek help immediately.

You can refer to this:

resiliens.com/resilify/program/cbt-for-bipolar-disorder

I'm incredibly sad. My chest is constantly heavy and inside I feel only guilt. I am alone with these feelings because apparently my husband is mad at me. He is on a longer business trip and on Thursday we had an argument, since then he hasn't even read the messages and had nothing to do with me. I am lonely and I would just like to disappear, disappear from the world, I have nothing but loneliness and emptiness. Does this have BPD? is it supposed to be about this? It seems that even love feels like a burden and only causes melancholia. I don't jump for joy when I fall in love, but inside I feel joy, but at the same time guilt and fear. The fear comes from being afraid to trust and believe in love, to believe that someone sees good in me and fear that they will reject and hurt me. Do these feelings belong to BPD? Does anyone else have the same feelings? #BPD #Sadness #Loneliness #Emptiness

Feeling lonely and neglected. Just wish I could feel loved.