I wish a few select people I still have contact with would spend some time with me (an entire day/weekend), so they could see for themselves just how badly my quality of life is due to my declining mental and physical health.
I have no help with things I cannot do alone, (surgeries put off because I have no help at the hospital or recuperating).
People have offered help with small things, but when I ask directly, they ignore me, so how could they possibly mean it? How can I depend on someone else when I can’t depend on myself any longer to care?
I spend ALL of my time alone except for my dog. I tell people who know me and say they care that loneliness will be what gets me in the end. I mean that.
Then there’s silence. WHY do I keep doing this when nobody cares?