I’ve had far too many meltdowns in my relationships, especially this one, I’m controlled, I’m accused , I’m put down, I’m misunderstood, he wants to marry me one minute- hates my guts the next.

I rarely see my best friend anymore and when I do I get grilled, I’m loyal af to my FP and it frustrates me when it’s questioned.

I’m ALWAYS at his house 3 hours away from my family and friends and I don’t even drive, I’m isolated, I used to have a home to be proud of, now half of my belongings are at his and my home is literally a squat..

There is no perfect guy for me, not even in books- so why do I still feel incomplete without a man in my life?
Why do I feel too much.?

I’ve had enough

I don’t want to cry anymore.

I will be strong and live MY life for myself. Not for someone else.

#27club #Ontheedge #BPD #Meltdown #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder