Well after I said “What the F***” and my boss said I need to “Calm Down”(never say that to an autistic person it’s a trigger)in front of costumers,I ran and cried in the bathroom. I texted my mom and my job coach about what happened and was too embarrassed to go back to my work area. My mom said to go up and apologize and explain the situation to him; well I’m a very emotional and analytical person and it did not go over well.
I ended up saying:
I was sorry for using that word but that he prompted that reaction by not using logic to think ahead and asked if he had to go to school to learn logic because he has none. I then added that he must have done it on purpose and was sabotaging me because of how chaotic the situation was and listed all the problems and scenarios that could occur.
He threatened to write me up because I was insulting his intelligence. I told him I wasn’t insulting him I was stating analytical facts and that I’ve looked up the difference before. I ran off again and cried in the bathroom till a coworker found me and tried to calm me down. Problem my job coach called at the same time and made it slightly worse.
She told me to stop focusing on what could happen and focus on the now and that I need to be awear if what I say. I told her I can’t control what I say or do in that situation I’m a passenger to my own body. I then went on my normal “why are all my managers idiots and I have to fix their problems? I can’t be the only smart one working every day all the time.” She told me to quit talking like that and she’d call my manager to see what’s going on.
My coworker helped me out by saying they need me and that I’m one of their hardest workers and to realize that sometimes saying the truth isn’t the best thing. My job coach then called to tell me I need to go home because I wasn’t in a state of mind to work and my boss tried to explain to her all the things he did to fix the situation. I asked her “why I was being punished for something he did. They clearly don’t care about me.” She said I needed to calm down and would check on me in person the next time I work there and that maybe I need to quit one of my jobs because I’m overwhelmed.
I took some ashwagandha and calming essential oil and though still embarrassed decided to continue to finish my shift even though I had taken an hour to cry.
The kicker at the end: I WAS RIGHT! 😝⚖️🎉 what I had told my boss and job coach could happen did happen. I was on a schadenfreude high. I was tempted to shout victory and I left doing this gesture ✌🏼.
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