Said good bye to my ex boyfriend today he broke up with for a number of reasons like pour communication,lowing,drinking, yelling, hitting, cheating and most recently for not listening when he is trying to help me. My stubbornness and fear of abandonment run so deep I have pushed away the only person who was always there. Due to my addictions and selfishness I have lost the intimacy that this relationship once had. My break from the delusion of being a victim has opened up my eyes to many realizations about how much of a role I played in the destruction of our relationship. I deeply regret hurting him and I hope it’s not too late. Why did I see him as an object before and not a person. The small acts of kindness don’t match up to the harsh reality of misfortunes I have caused such a sweet and strong man.