adiction

To be a perfect Person is a Inperfection
Just imbrace your self as you are
What kind of world would we have if we were all the same ???

I have been on this site for 2 day .I appreciate everyone being so nice and https://supportive.I fell I belong
Thank You All #PTSD #adiction

A New Year a fresh start but what about the stress? Do you (like me) find yourself waiting for something bad to happen? Starting a new year can be hard, all the pressure to make it better than the last, to be strong for the new year and welcome it. Don’t get me wrong I’m excited for 2021 however in the back of my head I can’t stop thinking, the first relapse of the year is ganna sting like a bitch. #triggerwarning #Selfharm #adiction #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

I had a dream last night that I was using. This morning I feel so guilty #adiction

“Hollow”

I hold my hands crossed to the window
Though there’s a hurricane outside
My book told me to bow
So I bow with stormy eyes

They said you could
Take away what I desire
Cuz it’s no good
Just puts out my fire

But don’t you know
As I cry to you
I drink your blood
Like it’s juice
Don’t you know
That I can’t quit?
There’s nothing else that helps me

Cuz these drugs
Burnt holes in my brain
They said I was fine
While they drove me insane
I reach for my
Last bottle
Hopping that it will drown
All my sorrows
But when I
Wake up tomorrow
I’m back to square one
Felling hollow

I get out of bed to meet some strangers
Because they’ve felt all my dangers
They’ve been better than me for days
Months and years

Run to my car fast as I can
Because my flask wasn’t in my hand
The truth is something I cannot stand
Where is my graceful man

He doesn’t know
As I cry to him
I drink his blood
Like it’s poison
Don’t you know
That I can’t quit?
There’s nothing else that can save me

Cuz these drugs
Burnt holes in my brain
They said I was fine
While they drove me insane
I reach for my
Last bottle
Hopping that it will drown
All my sorrows
But when I
Wake up tomorrow
I’m back to square one
Felling hollow

When I suck
My last drop
I pray for those
That I lost
Who am I talking to?
I don’t know
I just want it to stop
Feeling hollow

Cuz these drugs
Burnt holes in my brain
They said I was fine
While they drove me insane
I reach for my
Last bottle
Hopping that it will drown
All my sorrows
And if I don’t
Wake up tomorrow
It’s because I was as empty as my bottle
Hollow