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I'm drowning, feeling like I need to be saved.
I feel like I'm drowning in my depression, and yet no one is saving me. I mainly suffer with severe anxiety and panic attacks.
Last night me and my partner went for a drive to find somewhere nice to walk. Mainly woodland, peaceful, away from the toxic household. Now my anxiety I have to have some where planned to go, not spontaneously go (aswell hates Country lanes I don't know). So i really tried. After 5 miles out of town getting lost, still no where. The panics started. Me getting agitated that he didn't want to help, I eventually went home.
Laying in bed, I wanted a hug after my panic attacks, I usually do, especially as bad as that one. He told me no because of he's been suffering from his #CPTSD recently but never wanted to tell me, till I was at my worst, let alone apparently its all my fault. I thought we were meant to tell each other when we're feeling bad. Apparently not.
I self harmed on Wednesday morning, he hasn't even noticed that.
I tell him when I know my depression has Been triggered. Yet it just feels like he leaves me too it.
I don't know where I was going with this. Feel like I just needed to breath.
#Depression #severeanxiety #Anxiety #Ambivert #PanicAttack #Selfharm
