anxioty

Today is my fourth day in the Clinic just had a session with my Psychiatrist. I am feeling very emotional today. I feel alone and tearfull. Very anxious hopefully tomorrow I will feel better.
#Depression #anxioty

I'm a mom of two kids, 25 & 15. I'm a wife to my highschool sweetheart. I'm a #jeepgirl . I'm a gardener. I'm a ... well ... that's a weird one to explain shortly. I was in a near fatal car accident Dec 2009 and broke every part of my body. No spine damage, no brain damage & no internal damage but scratches, bruises, over 20 broken bones and I cut in my stomach (about 5×8?). Many repair surgeries and many times going back for corrective surgery, like my left foot amputation. So ... I'm an #Amputee ... had a right hip replacement... so ... I'm disabled from those other injuries being weak ... so I'm lazy ... pills & physio & exercise & tears & breakdowns & weakness & #Wheelchair & #Prosthetic & #crutches & #Fatigue & #stregth & #anxioty
So how do I lump that? How do I explain in a short description or 'label' it?
I fight to get up each day. It's not depression. It's not I want to die. Its I only have a guarantee of a certain amount of energy if this is a bad day so I'll take it easy now to do more later. But then its a good day and I'm up and doing a few things I've been wanting to get done plus the things I did while up/out. Sometimes its s few good days in a row! Then my body tumbles. My pain starts to spike. My thoughts/mood start to dwindle. I become preoccupied and start crawling back into bed sooner or staying longer because I need to rejuvenate and rest. This happens for months after each revision surgery. Now it's been just 9 years and my last surgery was 8 months ago (the right hip) and I'm still not sure what to tell people. Not supposed to always talk about the accident because no one else wants to hear it. New people like to hear my 'story' but I'm not sure how much to tell so I start small. But people think you are doing great and you are so strong and you are so inspiring and ... call me anytime if you need and I'm so sorry and how can I help and no dont help her she'll get upset and shes so depressed she needs help ... why cant she just think better? Why dont you get out more? Have you tried vitamins? Focus on the positive. Only talk about the good things and your mind will follow. She should find a job and help more. She should be doing physiotherapy and counseling. She has given up and theres nothing anyone can do.
So ... what do I name it all? How do I explain all of this situation in a label? I'm an amputee. I'm disabled. I have chronic pain. I have c-ptsd. I am a mom. I'm a wife. I'm a jeepgirl.
Hey. I'm Terri.