I think no longer being able to drive, and this Lyme Rage crap, are the two things I dislike the most about Lyme at the moment.

And please don’t be concerned about safety issues of any kind. I was always the happy drunk that still was aware of everything around him. Fortunately, in a similar way, I don’t physically lash out at people due to anxiety or rage... well there was that one time... but that guy was being a total pos.

So while I have had to become a little more familiar with this symptom, usually only a poorly placed inanimate objects have suffered. Typically hurting me more than anything else. And I’m actually really cool with that. I have always dealt with physical pain and injury, a tad better than the emotional side.

It’s a very nebulous place to be, when you know that you are acting irrationally. Yet it feels like 100% the right and correct thing to be doing. That area when you are not in control of you... and there’s lots of those area’s. But it’s the not being able to control the things we once did, some things giftedly, that really can bother you in a way a lot of things can’t. The embarrassment of apologizing for what you just did. The disappointment in self, simply because you weren’t in control.

That is a thing I would be fine with it just not happening. And if you are familiar with this, I would appreciate any info share on coping tools. #ChronicIllness #ChronicLymeDisease #BrainFog #lymerage #Apologizingforbeingyou