#Big Dark Hole #
#its been awhile sense I have written# the doctor has put me on a new medication for bipolar I also take Prozac and Bupropion always more pills , I go Friday to see if it helps # I am to the point of thanking nothing is going to work# The pain from the fibromyalgia , and my degenerative disc disease and gosh a host of other things my sinuses are really bad .#and get headaches all the time.But that has been better because of the medication that works.#and i I feel like my depression ,well I feel like I am on a rollercoaster ,up and down.# OK about that helpI donโt feel anything, I cry a lot it seems more .My kids are all grown up my daughter is in college.And my son is in high school 10 grade.And I turned a certain age and so many feelings . My husband said you need to go workout.He just doesnโt get it # and you don't want to keep saying how bad you hurt or writing your thoughts and people thank she goes again.# it really makes you wander why I'm still here I'm not gonna hurt myself but I just get so depressed I am very dark whole trying two claw myself out of the whole. It's a struggle #