What Bipolar Disorder Looks Like in Pictures
I typically use words to express my emotions, but for this project I used my camera. For several days, I found different ways to express myself, and I took self portraits to illustrate my experience of living with bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. The following images illustrate the emotions I experience as a person living with mental illnesses.
My mind is moving so fast, and I can’t sit still. I can’t stop moving or slow down. I haven’t slept in two days.
My medication saves my life every day, and today is no different.
My son needs me, but I am too depressed to be a parent. I feel so guilty for ignoring him, but I am in the pits of despair and I see no way out.
It’s midnight and I have to clean. I can’t stop organizing and cleaning.
I can’t get out of bed today. I feel lost in the ocean and it hurts to exist.
I feel like I’m just below the surface. My cries for help go unheard as I drown in the water.
Dinner needs to be made, and my daughter needs me. But I just can’t today. I am too drained and devastated.
I appear calm on the outside, but I am screaming on the inside, and no one can hear me.
I feel like I’m suffocating and my heart is breaking again. I can’t breathe.
I feel so empty today. I have a void that needs to be filled so I will search for a purpose and meaning among the ruins and ashes.
The mania is pouring down around me, and today it feels like I am melting into a pile of chaos.
The kitchen is messy, but I can’t clean today. My depression is so fierce that I probably won’t eat or move from the couch. The house is in shambles and so am I.