I’m setting a new PB every day with the Manic phase and it’s duration. I’m seemingly unable to budge from what I can describe as not being full blown off the scale mania, but it’s severe enough to mean that I have had to finish work and leave my job of 8 years, I have only managed to get 2 baths in 2023 (I have a wash every day though), I’m not eating anything for 3 days or 50 hours at least then I have something to eat and then I have something else straight after and this repeats until I have eaten, for example, a bacon butty, packet of biscuits, chicken Kiev’s and chips, 3 corneto ice cream and drank 5 or 6 can of Diet Coke. I’m weighing myself each day and I’m not losing weight on the days of not eating. Recently my blood tests came back with high Thyroid level so may be that or maybe it’s just the bloody Quetiapine I am throwing down my neck. Nobody knows how it works after all.
My Quetiapine (300mg) at night is meant to help you sleep. I’m taking it at the moment and sleeping is replaced with restless legs and an inability to get comfy or sit still. My mind goes racing off in all directions with things that I need (or actually don’t need) to do. Playing out scenarios like I was attempting to complete every possibility and all of the outcomes across every alternate dimension across the universe.

You know when you get them moments of clarity in your mind, when the penny drops, it makes sense? It potentially gives you a bit of inspiration to write, converse or do something? Maybe not, we’re all individuals. But just now try to imagine what it is like to have about 100 or more things going on in and around your mind. Rapid, at the speed of light, none stop, relentlessly. Now try imagining it going on for days on end?!? Well now try imagining it going on for weeks?!? Now try imagining it going on for months?!?! Six fucking months!

So this leads to worry and uncertainty about things you’ve made up! The voices are chatting incessantly and they chat some absolute shite let me tell you!
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