Mania

MANIC HOUSE

BUSY BUSTLING LOUD

BRAINIAC THOUGHTS

WORRIES HURRYING CROWD

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

CARE FOR WHICH ONES NOW

GHOSTLY SIGHTS

I UNDERSTAND, NOW TIME FOR SHOW

WORRY ABOUT HEALTH N WEALTH

N KIDS N STEALTH

N ELDERS N LONG LOST MEMORIES UNSHEATHED

BRIDGE A GAP

UNCOVER YOUR MAP

TO ANOTHER PLACE OR ANOTHER MINDSET

ANOTHER TIME AND ANOTHER VALUE SET

FAITH, CARE, SWEAR

FUN, SUN, SNOW, WORK, CUN

NING

HANDLE YER OWN TOOTH PEOPLE

N DON'T BE A CREEPLE

USE, MISUSE, VOWS, SHOULDA'S N HOWS

SO YOU GET LOWS

WHEN YOU'RE TRYING TO BE FAITH

SO YOUR VALUE IS DULL

BUT DO YOU GET A LULL

VALUE YOUR FAMILY

CHERISH THEIR WORTH

DON'T HURT OR UNCARE ME

OUR VALENTINES VOWS COME FORTH

THENS AND NOWS

STAIRS FLIGHTS N FIGHTS

YOUR WHOLE LIFE IN TOW

CAUSE YOU CHERISH THE LIGHTS

I HADDAYS of extreme abuse n assault this week, , Bipolar Mania Support would be good, crisis hotlines n such n Sponsors, but sometimes it's too hard, Ease up, it's better now, I don't understand n just don't want to be anyone's Beast of Burden, please don't damage those you could instead love, they all may leave this God Given Green Earth for Hell, for 3 days or forever, you have your own conscience, Please be careful, Please, it's Better now, Stand up for your Rights, Help, or if it's too hard take it, you know, abuse so sucks

At night I dance with the moon,
Swaying as the embrace takes hold,
While Falling fractals flow fragrantly off
The Tips of a tulip's tongue and meander to my tastebuds as the scent takes hold.
as I turn.
She sways toward the horizon already fleeing as I give chase howling.
Frantically feverish, double Dutch dive.
Transparencies seem to fade as she bounces off the screaming surface of the water's edge.
Dipping further. The final frontier, fatally colliding with the horizon as the crimson glory of her defeat is eminently here.
A Phoenix flash as the brass comes in, sending us off with a bang as we end at the beginning.
Or do we begin at the end?

I’m so tired

Of feeling wired.

I don’t trust doctors, most of the time...

I had to take a LOA from graduate school for the second time because medication is derailing my life, rather, the side effects are… My previous psych put me on multiple meds and never once mentioned an alternative to this trial and error bullshit with different antidepressants. This is the second year medication has given me mania-type symptoms followed by a crash, but now I’ve realized the pattern and I’m going to stop the cycle. It took me having to go on Medi-Cal to find a doctor that recommended I do psychological testing instead of trying yet another SSRI and seeing what happens. Honestly, I’m so grateful for this new Dr. and these realizations but I'm also so angry. Angry at a broken healthcare system…#BipolarDepression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #ssrimeds

LOVING OR ADMIRING A WHOLE LOTTA DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES IS NOT BEING THEM, IN ORDER TO ACHEIVE FREEDOM WITHIN RELATIONSHIPS ACHIEVE, RESPECT AND KNOW YOUR WORTH, SAY THANKYOU, AND A COUNSELLOR IS A PROFESSIONAL OR A SPONSOR THAT HELPS WORK THROUGH YOUR ISSUES, NOT YOUR KIDS, DON'T JUDGE A GENERATION OR OTHERS BEFORE YOU JUDGE YOURSELF, DON'T BECOME A LOSER OR ASSHOLE JUST CAUSE OF A SONG OR A LABEL IF YOU CAN CONTROL IT, DON'T VOLUNTARILY HURT SOMEONE BUT STAND UP FOR YOUR RIGHTS AND MAKE A POSITIVE EFFECT ON WAR BY CONSUMING LASS, DISSOCIATIVE MIGHT BE A PHONEY LABEL AS I BELIEVE IT CAN BE CONTROLLED, EVERY PROBLEM IS NOT YOUR PROBLEM, 3 TIMES THIS WEEK I FELT INVOLUNTARILY DRUGGED N PASSING OUT, ONCE IN ELEVATOR AT NURSING HOME, ONCE CAREGIVING WHEN CO CARER WAS TALKING OVER ME, AND ONCE AT HOME AFTER EATING DELICIOUS LASAGNA, MOST OF US CAN GOVERN OUR OWN INTAKE OF PRESCRIPTION MEDS N KEEP STEADY, DOCTOR'S LYING ABOUT SUCH THINGS THAT AREN'T IN ORDER TO FILL BEDS AND MAKE PROFIT IS AN ERROR, A FAULT AND LEGALLY WRONG, YOUR FREEDOM SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN AWAY WITHOUT RESEARCH FIRST, IF THE END RESULT IS A LIFETIME OF SI DUE TO THESE ABUSES AND WRECKAGE IN AN OTHERWISE COHESIVE HOME BECAUSE OF SELF SERVING LABELS, SMARTEN UP, CHANGE THE HEALTHCARE SYSTEM, BECAUSE I CAN ASSURE YOU SOME LIVES WANT TO BE LOST BECAUSE OF IT, AND IN MY OPINION A VERY VALUED LIFE WAS TAKEN BECAUSE OF IT, MY MOTHER'S, MEDA ATE NOT THE ONLY ANSWER, DEPRESSION TOREDNESS MANIA OVER ACHIEVEMENT AND EXCELLENCE DUTY AND ABUSES SUCK, PLEASE STOP THE BULLYING, THERE ARE MANY WAYS TO ACHEIVE BALANCE WITH SELF DISCIPLINE EXERCISE FRESH AIR AND GOOD NUTRITION, WE GOVERN OURSELVES N MAKE OUR OWN MISTAKES, STOP, TAKE CULPABILITY, CHANGE AND EXCELL SOMETIMES ITS THROUGH THE SERVICE YOU DO FOR OTHERS, DON'T DAMAGE WHAT YOU WETE GIFTED, BULLYING TO EVEN SI COULD ONE DAY BE MURDER

HI I think someone I live with has manic episodes, usually about politics n world concerns, this person is capable of so much so much, but can be abusive when not well, 3 am pill shaming, 9 days plus before visiting family, the tired end of Christmas Eve, lies about waking him or not working hard and effectively, threatening to send to hospital cause I try to confide in or teach the kids, overusing TV, bad night hours n Sleep prep, fights over taking a bath, lack of caregiving which he's good at, an accusation that wasn't true, a forced wrong declaration, talking about food so much so much, not clearing his own dishes or doing small things he can do himself, not caring as much for kids as he used to, temper over put away items, is this more than just too much Vodka in the Van so to say, n kid n him have lack of pride in home and surroundings, lack of drive which he's always had, too much screen, and lack of connection to others, as I am also faulted with SI after arguments and a temper when falsely accused, I'm concerned, and the nine of a nine of a nine of a nine when it's really just dinner at 8, more Peaceful now thankfully but hard since Nov 24, labels suck, it could just be that, also accomplishment helps, as I feel all encompassed as maid, caregiver, cook, baker, hostess n domestic diva n have no energy to encourage kids school issues which he seems to be against, We need a Mighty Mom group, n it's very cold out n sometimes needlessly so in the house, n we need music, Talentea, Talentear

Hi, my name is WorthWonderWellness. I'm here to share my recovery from Bi Polar 1 in the 80s. I had my first life changing episode in 1983, was diagnosed in 1984 and spent the next 4 years trying and learning all I could to restore my balance. I had 3 scary hospitalizations on the psyche ward and a number of jarring mixed episodes that could have qualified for hospitalization. However by 1989 I healed from my bipolar symptoms and behaviors. I took medication until 1987 but there wasn't nearly as much available back then and my side effects were severe. Thankfully even though there were some setbacks back then, I was able to replace medication and dozens of bad habits, with good sleep routines, exercise, eating well, journaling, counseling support, 12 step Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families support groups, and rebuilding my faith life. I had been a text book case in the 80s: Age of onset - 19, family history of alcoholism and mental illness, high achiever - but I believe more than having a "genetic time bomb in my brain set to go off at age 19" as my first psychiatrist explained, I had inherited chaotic life circumstances, anxiety, depression and unhealthy coping skills from my parents that needed to be unlearned and replaced with dozens of positive healthy routines. I don't blame my parents at all. They were loving, caring and gave me much more in childhood than they had received in their traumatic upbringings. But their divorce, remarriages, custody battles and alcohol abuse made my teen years chaotic and confusing. Still they were supportive as they had the capacity to be and we stayed close until they each passed away. I didn't know addressing the hurts of my painful past and making all those lifestyle changes would heal me, I was just trying to find peace, balance and happiness. What I found was that as I overhauled my lifestyle and thought life, I was no longer called to the fuzzy wonderland of mania when i was under stress, nor did I land in the murky bleakness of depression when life was being difficult. Positive daily habits keep my stress levels in check so that my unique bipolar chemistry does not get activated. Now that I am getting close to retirement age, I'd really like to help others with the stories, lessons, experiences and techniques that keep me well. I've got a full and wonderful life, happily married for 35 years with four awesome sons, three lovely daughters-in-law, a new grandbaby, successful business and many great friends. During my 20s I often doubted any of that was possible. Thanks for listening!
#MightyTogether #BipolarDisorder