Hi, my name is Kellzgirls1415. I'm looking for information on how to get social security. I NEED IT!! I haven't worked since before COVID. Since then my mental health has been at its highest due to a lot of traumas I've endured since Nov 2021. I can barely care for myself cuz I'm either going 1000000 miles a minute annoying everyone or I just sleep and sleep and sleep, I hate it.
My kids get neglected on those downer days but on my manic days ,which are not as often as the down days, I have said things, my tone with people gets really bad, I start 5 projects and don't complete any of them, I start freaking out, start to get overwhelmed so bad I just flip and seriously I don't even freaking remember what I said or how I was reacting. I have done this in front of my little girls. It's embarrassing, once I come down and calm down it hits me what just happened but it is what it is, I can't help it, it's so difficult to control once I reach a point it's Bam....but usually like a couple days prior to a manic episode I warn everyone cuz I feel it coming.
I've been the Victim in a domestic violence and 2 separate assault cases since Nov 2021. Since then my Mom passed from COVID last January, got evicted cuz it was in my abusers name and landlord threw ALL me n my little girls things away. Then come to find out it was illegal for him to do that since his attorney didn't show to court the judge dismissed the case but he still pitched it all, girls beds, toys, all their memories, every picture i had of anyone in my life, my jewelry, my dad's coins, my mom's plant and angel from her funeral, even my 14 yo dog I had cremated with her toys rope fur and collar and tags, baby books, all their records from when they were born....everything!! Since my abuser and I had a no contact order I was not aware of this at that time. The landlord kept saying I had to my things out but I had nowhere to take it, the jeep got repoed during this time as well so had no vehicle, no job, no money, no income and this was only 2 months my mom passed, then he abuse and sexual assault(in my sleep-found videos) I did not press those charges as I should have.
Well I was denied housing even tho I was homeless and a victim they used my criminal misdemeanor charges against me.one time ever arrested in my life they held against me. I've been homeless since. I wasn't working cuz he didn't want me to work and made plenty for us to live comfortable.
Well I've lived in 15 different places since, I am really struggling. Ready to give up. I have to file for it so I have some income. Now I'm not no POS I've worked my entire life since 15yo, I'm 44 now. When I got with my girls Dad, he manipulated me, the narcissist that he is, and I went from having everything to nothing in less than 2 years and I MEAN everything(even my babies).
He was a huge influencer (yes I take responsibility for my actions I am an adult just was bad time) at a very vulnerable time in my life.