** Warning this may be a long thought msg **

I never liked to open up and talk about my
feelings because I know people have it a lot worse than I do. I also wouldn’t open up to anyone because I never wanted people to look at me differently or have any type of sympathy for me. I have realizing that, that was the wrong choice.
A couple years ago I met a friend. We instantly connected. She was more spiritual than I was, but there was a reason why she came into my life. She had opened my eyes and made me realize that my hurt, my pain, my past doesn’t define who I am as a person. She also couldn’t believe that I endorsed so much hurt in my life but wouldn’t have know it because I am a bubbly person! She never judged me. She encouraged me to seek counseling. I was very against it because to me I didn’t want to hear the labels they would tell me I have. But that’s just it. I was in denial. I didn’t want to face it, I wanted to just forget and move on. I knew I had issues, but I wanted to pretend I was fine and normal. As I opened up and told my story I couldn’t believe how much I was holding onto. I cried a lot.

I was diagnosed with PTSD, Mild depression, Anxiety, Adult ADHD and Insomnia.

I get lost in my thoughts, sometimes they can be very negative thoughts too.

I say BROKEN ISNT BAD because I believe I have come a very long way from where I was a few years ago. I am in a healthy relationship 4 years now. I would be lying if I said things were easy for me. I struggled with my reaction and fear he may leave me because of my issues, but it’s been 4 years now and he helps me through this process.

I will be better. The first step is to open up to someone you can trust. Then baby steps moving forward!

I look at my tattoo and it reminds me that you can heal. #brokenisn ’tBAD #healingjourney