Insomnia

In November I'll be 24 years old and I didn't accomplish anything in my life I didn't even finish my education because I had to work after my father passed away when I was 14 and I never had boyfriend no one ask me out I know because I'm ugly and disgusting... I'm adult and people still bullying me... I don't have friends... I'm failure I'm completely failure the only things I have in my life is depression and anxiety and insomnia because they let me to believe I'm nothing in this world... i wish I wasn't exist because I get hurt in daily at job they harassing me I can't even defense for myself because I don't want to lose my job at restaurant... I really hate myself the death always there in my mind I need to find my a way out of this world... I need to leave this world... I'm really really tired...

Pain changes people... It makes them trust less overthink more...and shut people out...

I already had my own demons with depression and anxiety and insomnia...
oh yeah the people are the worst...

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time... It's the fear of failure but no urge to be productive... It's wanting friends but hating to socialize... It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely... It's caring about everything, then caring about nothing... It's feeling everything at once... then feeling paralyzingly numb... insomnia take your sleep away... losing your appetite...

I looked it up and Narcolepsy also comes along with nighttime insomnia and severe hunger when sleepy, which is why I am up a lot sometimes at night and often eat a lot before or after I sleep during the day. Also, I do not get hungry when I am not sleepy. I just eat a typical amount of food and then I am done. Maybe this is connected, I don’t know.

Have been taking prazosin because not able to stay asleep, nightmares, and flashbacks. The panic and wake ups decreases but I still waking up early morning feeling very awake for couple hours before waking time. Does anyone have experiences of taking prazosin?

#Prazosin #Nightmares #PTSD #Insomnia

When you’re younger, your cup is whole, but as you grow older the hole begins to grow.

Out from the cup your water flows into others, the flow only passing on and on.

The day comes when you realize,

’well what about me?’

but you let it go on too long, you let it happen too much and now you’ll never be complete. #MentalHealth #MentalHealthAwareness #Insomnia #LateNightThoughts #ADHD #exhausted #BipolarDepression

Alright Friends Back To Sleep Now. I have been working on learning how to cope with a recent diagnosis of narcolepsy. It is working for the most part because my ear problems are my number one and they are mostly in remission. However, I am going through a lot of caregiver changes at the moment and that is causing my stress levels to go up and down a lot. This means that the sleep wake cycles in my brain are messed up again because stress and heat are my other two main triggers for my sleep wake cycles getting out of wack, which can lead me to experience excessive daytime sleepiness, nighttime insomnia, and an intense need to eat whenever I get like this.

Tonight I enjoyed spending time with my family at our family friend’s pool. Then we went to get ice cream at a fast food restaurant. Oh and I watched some America’s Got Talent before bed. It was nice. Now I am going back to sleep because I am finally sleepy again after battling some nighttime insomnia. I will say that all of this comes along with my recently narcolepsy diagnosis, which is characterized by excessive daytime sleepiness and severe nighttime insomnia. If only I could convince the sleep doctor to put me on a medication. There I am finally opening up about my new diagnosis!