Insomnia

Hi, my name is amazonaddiction11963. I'm here because my husband lost his son 6 months ago, i lost my stepson, he was just coming back around to be a part of the family's life and we spent our 1st Christmas together last year. he was 36, my husband just saw him the night before may 30,25 and i got the phone call the next morning and had to call my husband with this devistating news. life has been so different, my husband doesn't talk about his son at all anymore, i literally just found out that his birthday is today 11/9, he would have been 37. I have tried everything i know to do, i have researched what to say what not to say, giving my husband space and letting him know however he needs to grieve, is ok, i am always here for him, i feel like i have also lost my best friend, my husband has different days, i can tell the anger days, bc i understand as a spouse i will get the brunt of it and im ok with that, i just wish i knew how to be more supportive. i was thinking of putting up a happy birthday banner and a few things out on the counter as a way to celebrate his birthday, but idk if this will be hurtful or a way for me to let my husband know that i still miss him too, and also a way to show support for my husband knowing today will be extremely hard as it is the 1st birthday without his son, knowing he cant ust pick up the phone and call him...any suggestions would be helpful

#MightyTogether #ADHD #Anxiety #Depression #Migraine #ChronicIllness #Insomnia #Grief #deathofastepson #agrievinghusband #myhusbandssondied #howtohelpmygrievinghusband

Hi, I'm Abqsinger. I'm here because I live with chronic pain, lack of energy, insomnia, fibromyalgial, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, and Polycystic Kidney disease. Depression and anxiety are also in the mix. I'm a retired opera singer, and I teach voice and piano. Although it's beginning to be difficult to find the energy to teach. #MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #Fibromyalgia #PTSD

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Hi
Warning-
Nothing positive here. I just need to B*tch . Something abt putting my thoughts out to where other ppl may see them is a step above bitching to myself.
I feel like I hav no rt to complain. I feel hesitant to say anything at all. My daughter has ripped my head off abt me expressing my feelings to her- & now when i tread with trepidation around her, she verbalizes that i must hav PTSD from my sisters!!
This from the girl who literally screamed inches from my face- "Are u F*cking Crazy???!" Or "You're a self obsessed Narcissist"- me who spent my career in the helping fields.
This young woman who, after begging me to tell her if i ever felt suicidal- left me- after I mustered the ooomph to tell her I Was Suicidal, to go pour coffee at a Barrista job. This same girl who refused me sleeping on her couch when i was evacuated out of my home for 19 days due to Wildfires. This same girl who left me when I was afraid I might OD on some hash oil a friend had given me for insomnia. - when I was too messed up to move or use a phone- much less find a phone. This woman who threatened to leave me places, miles from home, never bothered to even call when i was stuck in 5 feet of snow in the mountains, with no heat for 12 days- this girl who has repeatedly stolen from me, gaslighted me, bullied me, lied about me- & destroyed the relationship between my son & I- THIS GIRL- Now suddenly loves her Mom????

I call BullShit- & just another set up to be kicked in the teeth.

She has destroyed my Family & very nearly Me- & she denies every last bit.

NOW she just had her 1st daughters birth. Of course I was there all thru it- but really it's the same old story-

It Hurts. & there are NO good answers.

Thanks to her, my son has nothing to do with me. He also gaslights & bullies if he's able.

As a Mom, I feel like I cant win. Anyone who hasnt been on the sidelines directly either Accuses me of being a. Monster Mom- or being a mealy mouthed Wallflower.

I assure you I am neither. But Im done defending or explaining myself to Anyone-

I dont know if the Gashing Wound thru my Heart- caused by my children's Cruelty, Indifference & lack of Love, Empathy or Concern will ever stop gushing Blood- much less heal.

AND NOW- the Ultimate Actress "doesn't remember" any of the truly horrific things she's said & done & wants to play "Devoted Daughter."

Well thing is, I DO Remember. The Wounds are still there. Some days it's hard to just breathe In & Out-

Like I said, nothin positive in my post today- but I just needed to "say it out loud" if u will- to somebody- AI, Virtual or whatever.

I got diagnosed with OCD too. I love and hate it here. I love it because they really want to help you and they understand your hardships without getting you to talk. But I hate it here, they removed my nights meds so I didn't slept for 4 days. Even with my meds I couldn't sleep well so... yeah

Next week they'll finally change all my meds. That aren't working I had them since earlier this year.

Anyways, the weighted blanket isn't weighted enough, I like the noise canceling headphones. I stay most of the time in my room, I don't like being with people other than my actual friends.

They won't let me go bring some stuffs like the other I don't know why. Next week I'll probably be able to if I'm not alone.

Sleeping is hard for me. My insomnia is really bad. I don't sleep at all. With my meds I sleep a little. I wake up a lot fearing that I'm back at my family's home, etc. I'm never relieved from my thoughts. they keep running and coming back. I'm the prisoner of my mind.

#ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #PanicDisorder #Anxiety #AutismSpectrumDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #EatingDisorder #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

2 managers had a talk with me yesterday about my attendance.
Because I called in once, and I’ve been late 4 times under 90 days.
Yesterday i accidentally took Trazadone (a sleeping medication for insomnia) instead of my Prozac, I was still waking up and I was in a rush to leave for work that I just took it without thinking. And on my way to work I was very sleepy, my eyes were wanting to close. So I got to work on time and then I headed back bc I was having a panic attack bc I was feeling super drowsy. I got home and that’s when i realized I took the wrong medication. So ofc I called in 2 hours later, and I took a nap for 2 hours and I felt better. Still groggy, but not as much.

The day before yesterday my boyfriend accidentally took my car to work, and mind you he works 30 mins away from home. He couldn’t have brought my car back, and I wasn’t sure if his brother was gonna be able to take me bc he’s known for being unreliable, luckily he did wake up but I had already called in bc I didn’t want to call in last minute.

And yesterday they had a talk with me and I basically felt cornered, and one of the managers told me to get it together after I explained to her that things have been rocky at home, and that it was just not under my control. She even told me “I’m not saying we don’t care but get it together” and I started tearing up. 🥺 the other manager stayed quiet, and didn’t say much, and was nicer but that mean manager threatened me to fire me, if I’m late on more time or if I call out one more time. The nicer manager told me my work ethic is good but that it won’t matter if I keep showing up late or calling off. I explained to them that it was just unpredictable , but they didn’t seem to care.

It made me so sad. And I was in a bad mood all of yesterday, and every time I go through something I always feel like I’m the only person in the world to have ever experienced this. I always feel so alone in my feelings, maybe bc I feel my feelings too much.

I’m not looking for advice unless you have some. I ofc take full responsibility for my actions, and my time. I know I can only just make sure to be there on time and show up everyday im scheduled.

But I just want to know I’m not alone in feeling this way. 😔

#MentalHealth #CheerMeOn #MightyTogether #Insomnia