Hello.
So I lost all my life structure, all the reasons to get up and get going. I lost my job (just a once-a-week volunteer job but I loved it and it gave me somewhere to be and someone else needed me) and it’s not likely my job will ever be back for me to go to.

I also moved. I lived with others, in a sharehousing situation with extra special requirements. I had jobs in the home to do every day (it’s a home related/connected to the volunteer job I had) and now I no longer have those to do.

Losing both my job and my house duties at the same time was unpredictable and unfortunate timing. A double whammy.

I have two cats and a little dog. I love them, they keep me sane and alive. One cat has health issues that needs to be maintained every day. So she needs me. But in reality, she doesn’t need ‘me’. If I wasn’t around, someone else could take care of her. She loves me, but I’m not the only person that can take care of her.

I have thought of ways to return some structure to my days. I have of course thought of the usual ‘To Do List’ but I have rapid cycling Bipolar Type 2, so one moment I can be Captain Zippy McHypomania and be able to get things done. But in the same hour, I’ll be Ms Depressed Whatsthepointington and all ability to function, all motivation, all drive, even the ability think through a full sentence, disappears. It might come back, but no way to tell how long until it does.

If I write a ‘To Do List’ and Ms Whatsthepointington is in town, the list will not be completed by the end of the day and I will feel worse about myself and my abilities as a human and my existence on the planet. I am afraid that making something like that could actually have the opposite desired effect, and I really don’t want that.

So I am scared to try it.

Does anyone relate? Can anyone suggest ideas that might help?

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