Bipolar 2 Disorder

Salutations, my name is Devine! I am here because I am looking for community and resources on how to better manage my mental health. Recently, I was discharged from a voluntary inpatient hospitalization due to another dangerous depressive episode. Yup, this isn’t my first rodeo. I am diagnosed with Bipolar Type II with ADHD & CPSTD. I hope to connect with others going through similar experiences and facilitate hope. I am a mother and a current college student majoring in psychology (oh, the irony!) My dream is to become a therapist and help others like me.
Hi everyone! :) #ADHD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #MightyTogether

** trigger warning re: suicide**

Today marks 33 years since I lost my mother to bipolar disorder. Approximately six years ago, I was finally accurately diagnosed as bipolar II as well. This was a piece I wrote years ago, but I am quite proud of. Thank you for reading.

Dear Bipolar Disorder:

How I loathe you, and all that you have stolen from me and my loved ones. You took my mother from me at 18, but I knew your evil from long before. As a child, I knew you to be dangerous enough to tear families apart.

As an adult, you are my worst enemy and a pestilence that I cannot ever fully exterminate from my life. Bipolar disorder, you denied me a relationship with my mom as a friend, ally, and confidante. You have crushed generations of my family with your unrelenting weight, and I despise carrying your legacy in my blood.

You have stained nearly all of my memories of my mother, and besmirched the happy times as they never lasted long. You left deep scars on my soul each time Mom tried to surrender herself to you. The moment you claimed her life was when I knew you for the monster you are.

In time, I was forced to pick up the fight myself. Along with my sisters, I vow that you will never defeat us.

The sickeningly believable lies you have whispered took me down several regretful paths.

Bipolar disorder, I now recognize the havoc you wreaked during my most agonizing circumstances and lamentable life choices. Therefore, I steel myself against your darkness with all my might.

I bitterly swallow the cocktail of medications that makes this chemical imbalance stable enough to be a productive functioning member of society. Battling your viperous existence is utterly exhausting. There are many days my energy reserves run low, which forces me to stop and recharge.

Make no mistake bipolar disorder, my loved ones keep watch over me for the occasional occurrences in which you rear your ugly head.

With positivity, light, and unconditional love from family & friends, I shall keep you confined and tamed. I stand vigilant that you will not rule me. You will never again take away someone I love. You will not win bipolar disorder.

Know this, you will not ever win.

Im glad that society created the profession of therapist and counseling. It’s hard to live a life where mental health is looked down on. Where crying is seen as a weakness. Men can’t have feelings because we are seen as weak.
Everyday or/and hour becomes a struggle just move forward in life. It is sad that people choose suicide over talking. The thought never leave mind nor am I looking for attention, it’s just feelings.
We just have to take it one day at a time and know that they are living in our world. #XXY #BPD #executivedysfunction #Bipolar2 #CPTSD #Anxiety

Im glad that society created the profession of therapist and counseling. It’s hard to live a life where mental health is looked down on. Where crying is seen as a weakness. Men can’t have feelings because we are seen as weak.
Everyday or/and hour becomes a struggle just move forward in life. It is sad that people choose suicide over talking. The thought never leave mind nor am I looking for attention, it’s just feelings.
We just have to take it one day at a time and know that they are living in our world. #XXY #BPD #executivedysfunction #Bipolar2 #CPTSD #Anxiety

Hi everyone. I havent had the internet since February and have SO missed all of you! Ive checked out a hotspot from the library and have it for a few days, so the first thing I wanted to do is come here. 😊
I hope everyone is doing good or at least as good as you can be right now. Ive missed being here so much. Life has been a little overwhelming lately—-I have to move and dont know where I’ll be living yet, and health stuff is about the same. Ive felt pretty crazy for awhile but the minute I came here and started reading posts I felt like I was calming down, like I was home. I cant tell you how good that feels! Love you all so much and hope to get in some good time here before I have to take the hotspot back!

#Love #Bipolar2 #ADD depression #undiagnosedstomachpain #ChronicPain #ChronicFatigue #CheckingIn

Hi everyone. I havent had the internet since February and have SO missed all of you! Ive checked out a hotspot from the library and have it for a few days, so the first thing I wanted to do is come here. 😊
I hope everyone is doing good or at least as good as you can be right now. Ive missed being here so much. Life has been a little overwhelming lately—-I have to move and dont know where I’ll be living yet, and health stuff is about the same. Ive felt pretty crazy for awhile but the minute I came here and started reading posts I felt like I was calming down, like I was home. I cant tell you how good that feels! Love you all so much and hope to get in some good time here before I have to take the hotspot back!

#Love #Bipolar2 #ADD depression #undiagnosedstomachpain #ChronicPain #ChronicFatigue #CheckingIn

Where do you go or what do you do when you’re so stressed it’s making you physically sick. You have suicide ideation but no plan. You don’t feel like you should go to ER or psychiatric hospital but you’re about to lose it being home. Is there a middle place?
So broke can’t go anywhere, family is driving me nuts, husband expects too much from me, bills piling up, disabled can’t work, can’t handle things much anymore. What’s next? #Depression #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #MentalHealth #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #ADHD

Hi, my name is Trudi Bentley. I'm here because I was diagnosed with lupus, then told it wasn't lupus but some other type of autoimmune disorder. Additionally, I've been diagnosed with bipolar II disorder and self-diagnosed with c-PTSD. With that beyond said, I am also experiencing spiritual awakening, or sanctification, which can cause the symptoms of all the above. I have been exploring energy healing and how our bodies are self-healing.
I have roommates that I help when they let me. One is diagnosed ADHD, bipolar II, and recently, schizophrenia. The other roommate has diabetes, high blood pressure, stage 4 kidney disease, and hypertension of the lungs along with an extremely volatile anger that can materialize out of nowhere. I think he has undiagnosed bipolar disorder, too. The challenge I have is the first roommate is willing to do what's needed to improve himself and his health, and the second roommate refuses to eat vegetables, refuses to eat like a diabetic needs to to become healthy, and while he will take prescribed medication, lifestyle changes seem to be a real challenge for him. My biggest need is to have a support team and some accountability. Thank you for reading!
#MightyTogether #BipolarDisorder #diabetes #kidneydisease #adhd #schitzophrenia #needsupportandaccountibility