The last couple of days have been tough in terms of panic/anxiety attacks. Yesterday, I had a fairly mild (albeit strong for recent times) anxiety attack, and it happened when I was just going about my business, but I wasn't too anxious in the sense of my mind wasn't going into overdrive, I physically felt sweaty, my chest felt tight, but I also had my comfort items (fizzy water, crackers and my 'calm balm'), so whilst I was feeling it physically, I knew it would pass, and even though it made a little on edge for the rest of the day, it did pass and I could get on with my day.
Today was a different story. I didn't sleep much last night, but aside from that, I felt okay, my morning was fine, everything was just going along as normal, but around lunchtime, I started to feel nervous, but again I assumed it was just going to pass, and I left my apartment to do some more shopping (like I did yesterday) and go on a little walk to get my 10,000 steps if nothing else. I barely got out of my apartment, and the physical symptoms started, but I still felt 'in control', like it'll pass, it got worse. My ankles/limbs started to ache, my chest got tight, I felt light-headed, my eyes hurt, eventually started to feel nauseous, my breathing felt wrong. I've known panic and anxiety attacks for many years, but they are still just as terrifying.
Anyway, I felt like I had to force myself to do anything I needed to, in part because I have no time the rest of the week. I eventually got home without fainting, having a heart attack, vomiting, the usual panic attacks I and many others have, and whilst I feel pride that I managed to complete my tasks, I feel wiped out, physically and mentally.
I'm sorry if this sounded jumbled and rambley. (is that a word?)#Anxiety #panic #AnxietyAttack #PanicAttack #PanicDisorder #GeneralisedAnxietyDisorder