Im sure I'm not the only one tired of medications even though i sometimes feel so isolated from the world but luckily i have the companionship of a wonderful dog and my mom and I live on the same property. It started so many years ago the chronic pain and subsequent need for pain medication and now my Dr report shows opioid dependent. If you are in chronic pain you know the routine too much medication you can't function too little you're suffering too much.

I guess im just burned out between antidepressants, muscle relaxers, valluum and Norco just to make the pain bearable. I know there is no turning back from progressive late onset muscular Dystrophy and that the pain will stop when I'm dead but this continuous hamster wheel is creating feelings of mental defeat which is one of the main drivers for suicidal ideation even if there is no intent or plan. I have no intention of ending it i just wish i could handle the whole thing better.#MentalHealth #MuscularDystrophy #Fibromyalgia #DegenerativeDiscDisease #cervicalfusion #cervicalradiopathy #Lumbarfusion #OCD #ChronicPain #etc